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2017-07-19 09:28 pm

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There's nothing more disappointing than disappointing Indian food. HOW DOES THAT EVEN HAPPEN!?
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2017-07-18 12:28 am

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"I could go for a salad...."
Play all the Zeldas Quest II:
https://www.youtube.com/dolari
#playallthezeldasquest #zelda
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjVbD3stY8g
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2017-07-17 12:34 am

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Comics Updated! Closetspace #352
Lyin' in bed, just like Brian Wilson did....
http://dolari.net/cs/352.htm

I have to apologize for the delay in comics and streaming, but. due to several catastrophic events in my life, comics and streaming have been delayed for almost nine months.

I appreciate your patience during these hard times, and thanks for sticking with me.
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2017-07-17 12:18 am

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Maybe ask Peatrice for some makeup tips....
Play all the Zeldas Quest II:
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2017-07-16 10:20 pm

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As much as I'm ecstatic that Jodie Whittaker is the new Doctor, there's a tiny bit of me that is sad that we didn't get Craig Ferguson.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0sK5d3oshp8
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2017-07-16 02:03 pm

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I often get flak for buying boxes of MREs, but I really do use them more for emergency preparedness and roadtrips. Sometime when I forget my lunch.

The current batch is getting to its five year mark, which means it's time to start eating them before they expire. Usually I spend about $140 for twenty four packs (which breaks down to seventy two Jenn meals).

I don't like buying civilian MREs though, because each time I've done it, I've gotten really bad results (twelve of the same meal, odd freeze dried packs, cafeteria sized trays).

Three is one brand I saw that seems to be pretty good. But it's very expensive. About $120 for twelve meals. They're the same packs you get in military MREs, but more well balanced in what they have (every meal has a dessert, more variety of breakfast/veggie options). But half the actual meals.

But there's also how long they last. Each lasts about five years. But by the time I get them, there already two years old, giving me three years of storage. If I buy the more expensive packd it's half the meals...But double the storage time (I get them on year "zero").

I suck at money issues...should I get the army MREs (half the time, double the meals) or the civilian ones (double the time, half the meals?)
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2017-07-14 10:34 pm

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Finally picked up The Power of the Dark Crystal #1-4...about a third of the proposed movie.

WOW. This really needed to be produced as a move. It's really really good.
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2017-07-13 10:58 pm

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Play all the Zeldas Quest II:
https://www.youtube.com/dolari
#playallthezeldasquest #zelda
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2017-07-13 10:41 pm

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Felt good to stream again. Even if the volume was a little off.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y8zxNSUaxPk
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2017-07-13 07:00 pm

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We're gonna try this again: Oracle of Seasons in a few minutes!

https://www.twitch.tv/jenndolari
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2017-07-13 03:24 pm

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Play All The Zeldas Quest Episode 100 starts at the bottom of the hour!

I don't even know where I am in the game anymore

https://www.twitch.tv/jenndolari
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2017-07-12 12:22 am

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"No...really, Jenn. After 20 years as a woman, what HAVE you learned?"

I do believe that transitioning into the life of a woman is much harder when you're not born into the life of a woman. I often say "I was born in the language of Testosterone, so my Femininity has a bit an accent." I've been lucky that nearly all the women around me have embraced me as one of their own and "adopted me into the sisterhood."

This isn't an easy question. Life is much more different than I was expecting, and I was EXPECTING difference. I'll focus on the good, the bad and the ugly. One thing that struck me the most of each.

The Good:
The thing that strikes me most, one of the things I never had growing up as a male, is how being in a group of women, and women alone, can quickly turn into one of the most uplifting, reassuring and confidence building experiences ever. I always felt, with my male friends, that when we got together, it was more of a party than a support group. While it was a fun party, I find I prefer the support group. I do worry that I poison the well when I'm with my girlfriends (something that happens rarely to begin with).

The Bad:
Again, I feel this is one of those "being born into it" makes it easier than "learning to do it later," but so much energy goes into "maintenance." Shave this, shave that, don't eat this, do eat that, put on makeup, take it off, women don't do this, women should do that, rob a bank, rob a store. Choosing clothes went from "T-Shirt, jeans, socks and sneakers" to a regularly creating feats of textile engineering (I never did get my degree). It's something I had felt glimpses of when I was crossdressing in my teens. But I was surprised, once I did transition, that it never got easier. And I don't have to worry about dealing with all those things on a period, which I can't imagine makes anything easier. I don't really dress up anymore (for reason's we'll get into in "The Ugly"), and I don't feel like I live up to acceptance I was given for that reason.

The Ugly:
It's a matter of Equal and Opposite. I hear the stories of unwanted catcalls, guys forcing themselves on other women, sexual harassment at work, friends of mine have been raped. It boils down to male entitlement over women's lives. As a male, these things thing did not even make a blip on my radar. And as a non-passing transgender woman...it's still not on my radar. What is on my radar? I get the catcalls, but they're not to tell me I'm beautiful. Men still force themselves on me, but call me shemale when they do. Sexual harassment at work consists of running me out of the women's bathroom (Disclaimer: Has not happened in any of my Washington jobs). Thankfully I've never been raped, but the threat of murder hangs over my head all the time. It's still that entitlement over my life.

I often feel like an ogre in a land of elves, but, after twenty years, this square peg had nestled comfortable in the round hole (no Freudian imagery intended), and is doing her best to be a good woman. Even if she doesn't' look like one.
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2017-07-12 12:12 am

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"What's the matter?"
"Well, it's just that lately I've noticed everyone seems to trust me. It's quite unnerving, I'm still trying to get used to it."
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2017-07-11 11:01 pm

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"I may act like an eighteen year old Lethario, but in actuality I'm a six year old kid who thinks 'The Birds and the Bees' is a song by Barney the Dinosaur."
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2017-07-11 04:27 pm

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"In twenty years as a woman, what have you learned?"
"Damn, life is hard."
"That's it?"
"Isn't that enough?"
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2017-07-11 02:23 pm

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SH Rick, I've NEVER seen a Dhalsim player like you before. AMAZING!
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2017-07-11 11:36 am

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Huh...July 1st came and went and I didn't even think about it. It's been twenty years since I transitioned.

It wasn't like flipping a switch...it was a slow gradual process of presenting more as a woman and less as a man. But June 30th was my last day at Swan Technologies, and my last day of work presenting as a man.