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[dolari]

Once, about eight years ago, someone I barely knew, but trustes, offered to pay for my SRS surgery. Lock, stock and barrell.

I didn't take her offer. I didn't feel right taking money from someone I barely knew soley for a selfish purpose. I wonder, sometimes, wether I made the right decision.

Thing is...if anyone offered again to pay my surgery with no strings attatched, I still couldn't do it.

Comments

[carly-kai.livejournal.com]

i'd take it - if someone has the financial resources to help i'd accept and then paa along the favor to another when i could

[laura-seabrook.livejournal.com]

"What if"s are the bane of this process. What if I'd started transition at 21? What if I'd met the right person? What if I'd bought that other house? For myself, it took a while for me realise that I just wasn't strong enough or read when I was 21; that I had to be that person; and that my current home is the right place for me. So easy to compare oneself to others - to see their progress and berate oneself because "they got there first". But that's an illusion and a destructive one at that.

It may be that even had you accepted the offer at the time, you may not have been ready for it. I know from experience that it's important to do things in one's own time, on one's own terms. It might appear harder at the time, but in the long run you'll respect yourself more.