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dolariWhat a weird weird day.
First off, I'ma gonna get semi metaphysical later one - so here's the day's events. You can skip the rest if you think I'm kooky, or if that kinda thing annoys/bores you.
So after a very uneventful day, we went to Bastrop State Park to go hiking...but on our way there, we came to that lake I had written about earlier. The lake has gone down considerably...so much so that I noticed a pier! So we drove up, and noticed that there was a lot of "work" being done there. A discarded shirt here, pieces of iron there, an A-brace on the ground. We figured they must have JUST built the pier.
Before I allowed Sean on the pier, I walked to the end of it. About halfway there, the pier began to actually SWAY left to right. AT the end of the pier, it was going left and right AND bobbing up and down.
I figured it wouldn't be too safe to use it. :) The pier wasn't anchored on anything in the water - it was floating on empty barrels.
We got off of it just in time, too - a park ranger drove up and told us we shouldn't be using the pier because it wasn't built by the park authority. Turns out it was being made by a movie production crew, who would be filming there tomorrow and Thursday. I asked if the pier would be permanent, and the ranger said they had asked if they could keep the pier once they finished.
The movie is something called "Green Door JEsus" and it's filming on the lake, and the stone house near the playground. Principal filming is in Lockhart, some thirty miles from here.
We went for a one mile hike (The kiddo thinks it's two miles, but considering he's half my size, maybe it WAS two miles). It wore me out - I need to get back into shape ASAP.
Once back, I made a TERRIBLE pun and was thoroughly punished for it. (Spinning Bird Gevalt! Waaa! Wooo! YEEEOW! OY, VEY!)
I then went out biking. Hiking and Biking in one day = sore Jenn. My legs feel like rocks right now which means I won't be feeling to hot in the muscle department tomorrow - but I need to lose some weight...
why?
I may have an interview soon! I'm hoping it's a REAL job and not a fishing net for anyone who can sell sell sell. I hate sales, because I don't like lying - and sales is lying.
An eventful day was had by all, and my metabolism was taxed. I'ma do it again tomorrow.
Now onto things of a non-physical matter.
A few months ago, remember how I was mentioning about feeling trees and such? (Well, maybe not - metaphysical talk makes me really quiet for some reason - I'm heavily embarrassed by talking about it for some reason). Any ways...I decided that the wicca way was not for me, and tried other things, including literally "building" a deity for me. While that seems to have worked out, I'm finding that I don't feel things anymore - like I'm back at square one. I've lost that sense of...well...for lack of a better set of words..."The Force."
It's kinda like hearing a song you've heard for a billion years in mono, suddenly hearing it in stereo for the first time...and then realizing it's in mono again some months later.
My meditations are really muddled and hard to follow...things don't have that sharpness they used to have, I get distracted or even "un-plug" from the reality REALLY easily. Even my connection to New Character seems to be fading as it's hard for me to even visualize her.
It kind of worries me a bit...but it also sorta reassures me. I'm worried that I'm losing it. I'm reassured because it's something my brain STILL tries to reject even though I've experienced it first hand.
Another thing that has hit me recently, within the last week are rather...sexually charged dreams. This is something I simply never had before (honestly). And they're not charged in a good way. Usually it's your standard semi-surreal dream with nothing to do with sex...and then it just gets really strange.
Not to sound like an exhibitionist, but one dream involved me going to a McDonalds and ordering a happy meal. When I walk up to get the food, I reach out and grab this woman's breast. No rhyme or reason. It's happening with other dreams, too, where they're just plodding along, and I do something that is REALLY out of character for myself. So out of character that I will shock myself awake.
It rather disturbs me. Frankly, and this will prolly come as a shock, I just find sexual stuff in general awkward...I'd rather do without, and up until a few weeks ago, my dreams have complied.
Anyone else have these "Post-Magick" blues? Suddenly twisted dreams? Suggestions for trying to jump start myself back? Forget it and get on with life?
First off, I'ma gonna get semi metaphysical later one - so here's the day's events. You can skip the rest if you think I'm kooky, or if that kinda thing annoys/bores you.
So after a very uneventful day, we went to Bastrop State Park to go hiking...but on our way there, we came to that lake I had written about earlier. The lake has gone down considerably...so much so that I noticed a pier! So we drove up, and noticed that there was a lot of "work" being done there. A discarded shirt here, pieces of iron there, an A-brace on the ground. We figured they must have JUST built the pier.
Before I allowed Sean on the pier, I walked to the end of it. About halfway there, the pier began to actually SWAY left to right. AT the end of the pier, it was going left and right AND bobbing up and down.
I figured it wouldn't be too safe to use it. :) The pier wasn't anchored on anything in the water - it was floating on empty barrels.
We got off of it just in time, too - a park ranger drove up and told us we shouldn't be using the pier because it wasn't built by the park authority. Turns out it was being made by a movie production crew, who would be filming there tomorrow and Thursday. I asked if the pier would be permanent, and the ranger said they had asked if they could keep the pier once they finished.
The movie is something called "Green Door JEsus" and it's filming on the lake, and the stone house near the playground. Principal filming is in Lockhart, some thirty miles from here.
We went for a one mile hike (The kiddo thinks it's two miles, but considering he's half my size, maybe it WAS two miles). It wore me out - I need to get back into shape ASAP.
Once back, I made a TERRIBLE pun and was thoroughly punished for it. (Spinning Bird Gevalt! Waaa! Wooo! YEEEOW! OY, VEY!)
I then went out biking. Hiking and Biking in one day = sore Jenn. My legs feel like rocks right now which means I won't be feeling to hot in the muscle department tomorrow - but I need to lose some weight...
why?
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I may have an interview soon! I'm hoping it's a REAL job and not a fishing net for anyone who can sell sell sell. I hate sales, because I don't like lying - and sales is lying.
An eventful day was had by all, and my metabolism was taxed. I'ma do it again tomorrow.
Now onto things of a non-physical matter.
A few months ago, remember how I was mentioning about feeling trees and such? (Well, maybe not - metaphysical talk makes me really quiet for some reason - I'm heavily embarrassed by talking about it for some reason). Any ways...I decided that the wicca way was not for me, and tried other things, including literally "building" a deity for me. While that seems to have worked out, I'm finding that I don't feel things anymore - like I'm back at square one. I've lost that sense of...well...for lack of a better set of words..."The Force."
It's kinda like hearing a song you've heard for a billion years in mono, suddenly hearing it in stereo for the first time...and then realizing it's in mono again some months later.
My meditations are really muddled and hard to follow...things don't have that sharpness they used to have, I get distracted or even "un-plug" from the reality REALLY easily. Even my connection to New Character seems to be fading as it's hard for me to even visualize her.
It kind of worries me a bit...but it also sorta reassures me. I'm worried that I'm losing it. I'm reassured because it's something my brain STILL tries to reject even though I've experienced it first hand.
Another thing that has hit me recently, within the last week are rather...sexually charged dreams. This is something I simply never had before (honestly). And they're not charged in a good way. Usually it's your standard semi-surreal dream with nothing to do with sex...and then it just gets really strange.
Not to sound like an exhibitionist, but one dream involved me going to a McDonalds and ordering a happy meal. When I walk up to get the food, I reach out and grab this woman's breast. No rhyme or reason. It's happening with other dreams, too, where they're just plodding along, and I do something that is REALLY out of character for myself. So out of character that I will shock myself awake.
It rather disturbs me. Frankly, and this will prolly come as a shock, I just find sexual stuff in general awkward...I'd rather do without, and up until a few weeks ago, my dreams have complied.
Anyone else have these "Post-Magick" blues? Suddenly twisted dreams? Suggestions for trying to jump start myself back? Forget it and get on with life?
