I've been using the same paper clip for a year now.

Someone out there is playing with my cable. JUST BUY THE DAMNED SERVICE...like I do. Jeeze....

I've decided to cancel my San FRancisco trip. ACtually, it was cancelled for me. I realized that if I went, I'd get to the airport and not have a red cent for anything once I was there. Plus, the employment situation there is just as bad, if not worse, than Austin.

I've kinda boiled down to moving back with the parents. This will be the third time I've moved home, twice in shame. I'm not looking forward to it, or the idea of an 80 mile commute once the economy settles down. Maybe I'll go back to college while I wait. I doubt it, but that would make dad happy.

Any ways, the journal has been kinda blank lately because I've been kinda blank. Literally. I woke up yesterday and laid in bed for a good hour. Not because I was depressed, or didn't have the energy. I literally stared at the ceiling for an hour, without a single thought in my head. Anyway, I did nothing Tuesday. Wednesday wasn't much better. I sat around and binge ate. I really shouldn't do that, and tomorrow, I think I'm gonna take some of this time of to go out an exercise. That's something I don't have the energy for anymore. And yeah, that's the depression setting in. I'd go see a shrink about it, but I ain't got no money.

I was blank for most of the day as well. I lied down with the TV on for a few hours, while my mind drifted away into that not-sleep-not-awake state. When I wasn't blanked, I worked on a Half Life map of my apartment. Yeah, that's pathetic, but, you know, it's fun killing all those scientists. Cheap thrill. I also played some Doom. THAT was fun. :) Doom is a great pick me up game. I love it.

Yes, I'm pessimistic. You would be too if you knew my parents.

14 days, folks. 14 days.

I've been using the same paper clip for a year now.

Someone out there is playing with my cable. JUST BUY THE DAMNED SERVICE...like I do. Jeeze....

I've decided to cancel my San FRancisco trip. ACtually, it was cancelled for me. I realized that if I went, I'd get to the airport and not have a red cent for anything once I was there. Plus, the employment situation there is just as bad, if not worse, than Austin.

I've kinda boiled down to moving back with the parents. This will be the third time I've moved home, twice in shame. I'm not looking forward to it, or the idea of an 80 mile commute once the economy settles down. Maybe I'll go back to college while I wait. I doubt it, but that would make dad happy.

Any ways, the journal has been kinda blank lately because I've been kinda blank. Literally. I woke up yesterday and laid in bed for a good hour. Not because I was depressed, or didn't have the energy. I literally stared at the ceiling for an hour, without a single thought in my head. Anyway, I did nothing Tuesday. Wednesday wasn't much better. I sat around and binge ate. I really shouldn't do that, and tomorrow, I think I'm gonna take some of this time of to go out an exercise. That's something I don't have the energy for anymore. And yeah, that's the depression setting in. I'd go see a shrink about it, but I ain't got no money.

I was blank for most of the day as well. I lied down with the TV on for a few hours, while my mind drifted away into that not-sleep-not-awake state. When I wasn't blanked, I worked on a Half Life map of my apartment. Yeah, that's pathetic, but, you know, it's fun killing all those scientists. Cheap thrill. I also played some Doom. THAT was fun. :) Doom is a great pick me up game. I love it.

Yes, I'm pessimistic. You would be too if you knew my parents.

14 days, folks. 14 days.