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Feb. 14th, 2012
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Feb. 14th, 2012 02:03 amThe State of the Jenn.
Live:
The state of the Jenn is....better. Monetarily I'm better. Three of the four major health bills are paid off, and $1600 is still owed on a fourth. Unfortunately, the $300 a month I spend on medications wipes out any real chance of paying that off. But hey, I'm on anti depressants, and I'm no longer rationing them. And I'm getting my groove back! I've packed on twenty pounds since starting the antidepressants, and I'm fighting hard to lose them again. So far it's not a losing battle. But it's also not a winning one. My doctor and I are trying to find a way to keep it from getting worse.
Work:
The job continues through Year Three. I'm still suffering from my "anergophobia" (irrational fear of losing my job), but the pills have calmed that down a lot. I still mess up, and often wonder why I'm still there, but I keep doing what I'm doing, as it seems to keep me there. It's the best job I've ever had (sorry, DNP, I love you, but you're a VERY close second), and I don't want to lose it. However, I also will not wait on it forever.
Play:
SECTION 1 - THE FICTION
The antidepresseants have given me my groove back, and with it, come the comics. Right now we're in our tenth anniversary of both comics. Closetspace is still going strong, and I havne't broken my schedule this year (for once). There's a been a comic every week except for the last Monday of the month. A Wish for Wings, however. There's a problem. Closetspace is the most popular of my comics, and so it gets the highest priority. A Wish for Wings, however, I consider a more important story to tell. Which is why I don't abandon it even after only two comics in two years. I do definitely want to tell that story, but it must take a back seat to CS, and almost no time is left to tell it. Eventually there are other stories I want to tell. But I have no idea how I will ever tell them. "The Military Story" is still fresh in my mind, and as a co-written piece, makes me incredibly guilty that it's on hold until I get some kind of free time to devote a share of brainpower to it. Myu cowriter is probably very antsy.
SECTION 2 - THE FACTS
Work on Girl in the Mirror has slowed down considerably for the same reason. At the beginning of the year, I went off Christmas hiatus for CS, and came back to another term at AwesomeJob. Both eat up my time, and make AWFW and the book hard to get finished. I'd hoped to have it done before the new year, but it's looking like March or April when I finish the rough draft at this rate. After that, I'll send out copies to all the people I've asked to write extra chapters for, and begin the pass for a second draft, hopefully done by the end of the year.
SECTION 3 - TRAVEL
The pickup is back in action again, but she's not doing well. At 242,000 miles, she's near the end of her life (and there's that mandatory retirement thing I'm doing at 250,000). It looks like long roadtrips are off this year, and that she may make her final stand in Washington, instead of Texas, like I'd hoped. Still, I'm going to try and make the best of her failing health, by doing things more local. I still don't like Seattle, maybe I can learn to like it.
There may be a trip back to Texas in July if I can muster it. I'd like to go to my reunion, but I only really have One Big Trip per year, and that would probably kill any attempt to come back to Texas for Thanksgiving and/or Christmas.
The Future:
There are two possible futures, and, at this point, they all hinge on AwesomeJob. With Emily gone, there's very little but AwesomeJob and my few friends keeping me here. I'm currently a temp there. I'm putting in for every job I can get, but haven't been successful at getting one. And I've decided I won't wait forever. If I'm not hired by the end of my lease at this house, I'll be moving back to Texas.
But lets keep this positive: Assuming I get hired, I will stay here in Redmond (if the roomie's will have me and we are offered the house for rent again). If not, I may move back to my old digs in Renton, or if I'm feeling extravagant in Snoqualmie. I've always loved Snoqualmie.
If I'm not hired, I'm hoping to move back to either San Marcos or even New Braunfels. I've neverlived there before, I like the area. If not those two, anywhere on the I-35 cooridor between San Antonio and Austin will be nice.
I'm hoping, once the truck hits 250,000 miles to retire her, and get a new one (wether in Texas or Washington). If the money isn't there, I'll keep her past 250,000 miles, but the first breakdown after that will be her last. I'm not keen on letting her go. We've had some great adventures. But the years of deferred maintenance are killing her before her time.
So. The state of the Jenn. Not bad. Not bad at all.
Live:
The state of the Jenn is....better. Monetarily I'm better. Three of the four major health bills are paid off, and $1600 is still owed on a fourth. Unfortunately, the $300 a month I spend on medications wipes out any real chance of paying that off. But hey, I'm on anti depressants, and I'm no longer rationing them. And I'm getting my groove back! I've packed on twenty pounds since starting the antidepressants, and I'm fighting hard to lose them again. So far it's not a losing battle. But it's also not a winning one. My doctor and I are trying to find a way to keep it from getting worse.
Work:
The job continues through Year Three. I'm still suffering from my "anergophobia" (irrational fear of losing my job), but the pills have calmed that down a lot. I still mess up, and often wonder why I'm still there, but I keep doing what I'm doing, as it seems to keep me there. It's the best job I've ever had (sorry, DNP, I love you, but you're a VERY close second), and I don't want to lose it. However, I also will not wait on it forever.
Play:
SECTION 1 - THE FICTION
The antidepresseants have given me my groove back, and with it, come the comics. Right now we're in our tenth anniversary of both comics. Closetspace is still going strong, and I havne't broken my schedule this year (for once). There's a been a comic every week except for the last Monday of the month. A Wish for Wings, however. There's a problem. Closetspace is the most popular of my comics, and so it gets the highest priority. A Wish for Wings, however, I consider a more important story to tell. Which is why I don't abandon it even after only two comics in two years. I do definitely want to tell that story, but it must take a back seat to CS, and almost no time is left to tell it. Eventually there are other stories I want to tell. But I have no idea how I will ever tell them. "The Military Story" is still fresh in my mind, and as a co-written piece, makes me incredibly guilty that it's on hold until I get some kind of free time to devote a share of brainpower to it. Myu cowriter is probably very antsy.
SECTION 2 - THE FACTS
Work on Girl in the Mirror has slowed down considerably for the same reason. At the beginning of the year, I went off Christmas hiatus for CS, and came back to another term at AwesomeJob. Both eat up my time, and make AWFW and the book hard to get finished. I'd hoped to have it done before the new year, but it's looking like March or April when I finish the rough draft at this rate. After that, I'll send out copies to all the people I've asked to write extra chapters for, and begin the pass for a second draft, hopefully done by the end of the year.
SECTION 3 - TRAVEL
The pickup is back in action again, but she's not doing well. At 242,000 miles, she's near the end of her life (and there's that mandatory retirement thing I'm doing at 250,000). It looks like long roadtrips are off this year, and that she may make her final stand in Washington, instead of Texas, like I'd hoped. Still, I'm going to try and make the best of her failing health, by doing things more local. I still don't like Seattle, maybe I can learn to like it.
There may be a trip back to Texas in July if I can muster it. I'd like to go to my reunion, but I only really have One Big Trip per year, and that would probably kill any attempt to come back to Texas for Thanksgiving and/or Christmas.
The Future:
There are two possible futures, and, at this point, they all hinge on AwesomeJob. With Emily gone, there's very little but AwesomeJob and my few friends keeping me here. I'm currently a temp there. I'm putting in for every job I can get, but haven't been successful at getting one. And I've decided I won't wait forever. If I'm not hired by the end of my lease at this house, I'll be moving back to Texas.
But lets keep this positive: Assuming I get hired, I will stay here in Redmond (if the roomie's will have me and we are offered the house for rent again). If not, I may move back to my old digs in Renton, or if I'm feeling extravagant in Snoqualmie. I've always loved Snoqualmie.
If I'm not hired, I'm hoping to move back to either San Marcos or even New Braunfels. I've neverlived there before, I like the area. If not those two, anywhere on the I-35 cooridor between San Antonio and Austin will be nice.
I'm hoping, once the truck hits 250,000 miles to retire her, and get a new one (wether in Texas or Washington). If the money isn't there, I'll keep her past 250,000 miles, but the first breakdown after that will be her last. I'm not keen on letting her go. We've had some great adventures. But the years of deferred maintenance are killing her before her time.
So. The state of the Jenn. Not bad. Not bad at all.
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Feb. 14th, 2012 10:33 amRememer my head not being in the game yesterday?
Well, after only five hours of sleep (my body clock has long since overpowered the Trazodone I was taking for insomnia), I managed to leave my phone and Nintendo 3DS at home, completely forgot to even MAKE lunch for me today, made my first mistake at work, and desperately want another eight hours of sleep.
And I've only been awake two hours.
Gonna be a LONG haul.
Well, after only five hours of sleep (my body clock has long since overpowered the Trazodone I was taking for insomnia), I managed to leave my phone and Nintendo 3DS at home, completely forgot to even MAKE lunch for me today, made my first mistake at work, and desperately want another eight hours of sleep.
And I've only been awake two hours.
Gonna be a LONG haul.
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Feb. 14th, 2012 12:50 pmThinking of using Pike Place Market as my grocery again. It's a little more expensive than the local super markets, but the quality is first rate and the selection and diversity are amazing. The downside is, this time, I'd also be paying to drive into Seattle and possibly for parking (before, I just hit the place before work, which was a few blocks away). Maybe I should wait for a bigger paycheck, first....
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Feb. 14th, 2012 07:48 pmSo, not only did I forget my Nintendo 3DS, my phone, forgot to make lunch and inexplicably bring a spoon to work for no reason...I forgot to shave my upper lip. When you're trying to pass as a female, and don't do it well to begin with, this is not good.
But now, SOUP! :9
But now, SOUP! :9