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Jun. 13th, 2013 08:37 pmA few weeks ago, I was watching an episode of Adventure Time called "I Remember You." At the end, the mix of incredibly emotive animation, a heart wrenching song, and the tragedy of the story they didn't tell actually moved me to tears.
http://youtu.be/-5onWmMbLkA
I was really surprised at how much it affected me until I realized that it was touching on a story I've only ever hinted at in AWFW.
One of the things about my characters, is I know most of their lives, backwards and forwards. Way before and way after the stories. I know that Carrie plays the oboe as well as the guitar, I know the history of the ficitonal town that Andrea lives in. And there's Nena:
In episode 193 (http://www.dolari.net/awfw/193.htm), Han'a mentions that she watched Nen'a reincarnate repeatedly, and each time lost more and more of her memory of things past. And eventually one reincarnation too many, Nen'a didn't know who Han'a was anymore. Just a vague feeling of deja vu and a pain that there was something there before. That reincarnation was a poet name Moero.
After catching sight of Han'a watching her from afar (Han'a didn't hide herself much to Nen'a's reincarnations, in violation of the "Always Keep Hidden" orders), Moero scratched out a quick poem.
The characters in my head have lives of their own. AS I've often said, I don't write these characters, I report what they do. Over the course of a few days in 2011 I began hearing snippets of lines and stream of consciousness. After a few days I felt one of my characters needing to talk to me, so I went into that place in the back of my head where the characters talk to me, and got this:
I feel I know you,
But I cannot place the face.
A memory passed away
Vanished without a trace.
There's a feeling, here,
Of love, I know not how.
I recognize you, yet,
I've only met you now.
Memory floods in my head,
Things I should not remember, but,
Mulsum drink,
And Roast Boar.
They never
Passed over my lips.
Imagining this?
You were there I know,
And yet, you weren't there.
Watching from the wings,
Although I know not where.
Grassy plains and fields,
A child between us two.
Stone and blood and rocks,
Taken from me too soon.
Memory floods in my head,
Things I should not remember, but,
Flatbread meal
And your warmth.
They never
Existed for me.
How can this all be?
ilivedwithyouinsideacavetherewereotherswithusbutwithmeyoueverstayedourdaughterproofourshortlovetakenfrommeviolentlyrippedfrommylonglifeilivedalonewithmyfatherahouseofstonewithpapersthathehadsavedformeiboreadaughterforanotherlovetaughthereverythingforbiddentousbothatemplemadeofbronzeandgoldbutpowerleftusleavingfamilypassedawayparadedthroughthestreetsofromemarriedoffforpoliticsourweddingbedwascoldpeasantsinaworldofjadeandricewewereneverrichbutourliveswereneversad
Memory floods in my head,
Things I should not remember, but,
Golden chains,
Rice field ponds.
They never
Were part of my life.
Causing me strife.
I feel I know you,
But I cannot place the face.
A memory passed away
Vanished without a trace.
You were there I know,
And yet, you weren't there.
Watching from the wings,
Although I know not where.
Han'a, in the story read this. And as she did, she'd realized that Nen'a, who she was in an arranged marriage with, and eventually, in time, fell in love with, despite all the challenges, no longer remembered anything about her.
In episode #193, Han'a mentions she "missed her death" sometime in the Roman Era. Han'a actually purposely never went to her, because the pain of Nen'a's memory loss was too much to bear. When she finally did gather up the courage to find her, she had gone back to Earth, and was lost among all the newborns of that time.
There are a lot of stories in my head. Even more stories involving stories I'm already telling. I don't know how I'll ever tell them except as anecdotes....
http://youtu.be/-5onWmMbLkA
I was really surprised at how much it affected me until I realized that it was touching on a story I've only ever hinted at in AWFW.
One of the things about my characters, is I know most of their lives, backwards and forwards. Way before and way after the stories. I know that Carrie plays the oboe as well as the guitar, I know the history of the ficitonal town that Andrea lives in. And there's Nena:
In episode 193 (http://www.dolari.net/awfw/193.htm), Han'a mentions that she watched Nen'a reincarnate repeatedly, and each time lost more and more of her memory of things past. And eventually one reincarnation too many, Nen'a didn't know who Han'a was anymore. Just a vague feeling of deja vu and a pain that there was something there before. That reincarnation was a poet name Moero.
After catching sight of Han'a watching her from afar (Han'a didn't hide herself much to Nen'a's reincarnations, in violation of the "Always Keep Hidden" orders), Moero scratched out a quick poem.
The characters in my head have lives of their own. AS I've often said, I don't write these characters, I report what they do. Over the course of a few days in 2011 I began hearing snippets of lines and stream of consciousness. After a few days I felt one of my characters needing to talk to me, so I went into that place in the back of my head where the characters talk to me, and got this:
I feel I know you,
But I cannot place the face.
A memory passed away
Vanished without a trace.
There's a feeling, here,
Of love, I know not how.
I recognize you, yet,
I've only met you now.
Memory floods in my head,
Things I should not remember, but,
Mulsum drink,
And Roast Boar.
They never
Passed over my lips.
Imagining this?
You were there I know,
And yet, you weren't there.
Watching from the wings,
Although I know not where.
Grassy plains and fields,
A child between us two.
Stone and blood and rocks,
Taken from me too soon.
Memory floods in my head,
Things I should not remember, but,
Flatbread meal
And your warmth.
They never
Existed for me.
How can this all be?
ilivedwithyouinsideacavetherewereotherswithusbutwithmeyoueverstayedourdaughterproofourshortlovetakenfrommeviolentlyrippedfrommylonglifeilivedalonewithmyfatherahouseofstonewithpapersthathehadsavedformeiboreadaughterforanotherlovetaughthereverythingforbiddentousbothatemplemadeofbronzeandgoldbutpowerleftusleavingfamilypassedawayparadedthroughthestreetsofromemarriedoffforpoliticsourweddingbedwascoldpeasantsinaworldofjadeandricewewereneverrichbutourliveswereneversad
Memory floods in my head,
Things I should not remember, but,
Golden chains,
Rice field ponds.
They never
Were part of my life.
Causing me strife.
I feel I know you,
But I cannot place the face.
A memory passed away
Vanished without a trace.
You were there I know,
And yet, you weren't there.
Watching from the wings,
Although I know not where.
Han'a, in the story read this. And as she did, she'd realized that Nen'a, who she was in an arranged marriage with, and eventually, in time, fell in love with, despite all the challenges, no longer remembered anything about her.
In episode #193, Han'a mentions she "missed her death" sometime in the Roman Era. Han'a actually purposely never went to her, because the pain of Nen'a's memory loss was too much to bear. When she finally did gather up the courage to find her, she had gone back to Earth, and was lost among all the newborns of that time.
There are a lot of stories in my head. Even more stories involving stories I'm already telling. I don't know how I'll ever tell them except as anecdotes....
