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Jul. 23rd, 2013 04:00 amAs I mentioned earlier, I'm trying something different with my makeup. Some quick backround.
About 2006 or 7, after years of getting "sirred" all the time, I decided to try a test. I got dressed up to the nines, got made up, hair done, and had a day on the town. All to see if maybe my clothes and/or makeup were giving me away as boilgically male, or if it was "me." Yes, that's a typo, but an awesome typo, so I'm letting it stand.
The whole day, even in a nice outfit, make up, skirt...I got sirred. Constantly, repeatedly. It was then that I figured my body is just too far gone from testosterone that I wouldn't pass as a woman - I just had to live with it. I really stopped trying to look nice after that since it was a lot of work, for little gain. Also, I hate wearing makeup cause I hate stuff sitting/stuck too close to my face/head.
Since coming back to Texas, I've had a lot of interviews. So out have come the nice clothes, and the makeup kit. During one interview, I was running late and put on my makeup in the car, and put on too much foundation. Without any time or even a sink to fix it, I just went with it.
And I didn't get sirred once.
So, for the last couple of outings, I've worn heavier than usual makeup, and I'm not getting misgendered near as much as I used to. The problem is, it's a look that obviously says "this person is wearing too much makeup." I'm trying to find a middle ground between "not so heavy" and "enough to keep me gendered right."
But at least I know it can be done. I'd spent the last ten years just not caring anymore how I looked.
About 2006 or 7, after years of getting "sirred" all the time, I decided to try a test. I got dressed up to the nines, got made up, hair done, and had a day on the town. All to see if maybe my clothes and/or makeup were giving me away as boilgically male, or if it was "me." Yes, that's a typo, but an awesome typo, so I'm letting it stand.
The whole day, even in a nice outfit, make up, skirt...I got sirred. Constantly, repeatedly. It was then that I figured my body is just too far gone from testosterone that I wouldn't pass as a woman - I just had to live with it. I really stopped trying to look nice after that since it was a lot of work, for little gain. Also, I hate wearing makeup cause I hate stuff sitting/stuck too close to my face/head.
Since coming back to Texas, I've had a lot of interviews. So out have come the nice clothes, and the makeup kit. During one interview, I was running late and put on my makeup in the car, and put on too much foundation. Without any time or even a sink to fix it, I just went with it.
And I didn't get sirred once.
So, for the last couple of outings, I've worn heavier than usual makeup, and I'm not getting misgendered near as much as I used to. The problem is, it's a look that obviously says "this person is wearing too much makeup." I'm trying to find a middle ground between "not so heavy" and "enough to keep me gendered right."
But at least I know it can be done. I'd spent the last ten years just not caring anymore how I looked.
