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Sep. 25th, 2014 04:30 amStill looking for work. Found two jobs that look like good prospects. The problem is, I'm starting to get a bit...anxious. Not because I'm going to lose my apartment, or lose Austin. It's something I call "Pencils Down."
I've tried very hard to balance my art and my job. But there's one thing that kills me every time. It's when I'm in the midst of a really good art-jag. I'm drawing, writing, whatever. And then I hit the wall that says "Stop. You must go to bed so you can go to work."
The last month has been a creative eye-opener. I'm drawing, not because I have to, but because I want to. The last week, where I haven't had time to draw, or had a specific break planned, has actually made me anxious: I want to keep writing and drawing. I want to try and make this my career.
But knowing that a job will need to be in my future, due to my inability to monetize my art and writing, just makes me think about losing that creative freedom and drive to the dreaded "Pencils Down."
I've tried very hard to balance my art and my job. But there's one thing that kills me every time. It's when I'm in the midst of a really good art-jag. I'm drawing, writing, whatever. And then I hit the wall that says "Stop. You must go to bed so you can go to work."
The last month has been a creative eye-opener. I'm drawing, not because I have to, but because I want to. The last week, where I haven't had time to draw, or had a specific break planned, has actually made me anxious: I want to keep writing and drawing. I want to try and make this my career.
But knowing that a job will need to be in my future, due to my inability to monetize my art and writing, just makes me think about losing that creative freedom and drive to the dreaded "Pencils Down."
