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dolariWhat a day. I'm in a very...i don't know what kinda mood right now.
I woke up, and double cheked the new archive, and I plan to burn them tomorrow. I took a shower, and read my newsgroups. Got back on a few forums that the old hard drive was keeping me offa.
Deener came over today, and we played some music (And wheeeeeee!), watched a million and a half Law & Order episodes (I counted SIX episodes on today. SIX!) And played some Street Fighter Alpha 3, and Capcom VS SNK. I miss playing with her...I almost feel like I trained her in these games. :)
I also was told what it was that broke us up...and I gotta admit, it was a worthy reason. Again, I'm my own worst enemy...and my problems simply overwhelmed me and drove her away. I'm very sad what happened happened, and I feel terrible for the reasons behind it.
I wish I wasn't wrong so often. For once, I'd like to be RIGHT. I'd like one, single, solitary day where everything I did came out golden, and I could have my friends over without making them sad or uncomfortable, or snipe. I don't htink this will ever happen. I honestly don't believe I'm destined to be happy. Lord knows, I've tried.
I miss her. Terribly.
But enough - I really should get to bed, I need to deposit some money in the bank tomorrow, and get up bright and early. Early being Noonish. I'm going to San Antonio, visit the parents...grab some boxes and pack.
Strangelove once told me that tmy entire time in State College was a tragedy. No. Texas is the tragedy. I love the state, I love Austin and San Antonio dearly, but Texas and 2001 have been outright hostile to me.
I know, I know, I'm beating a dead horse. That's another of my problems - I can't let anything go. I bear grudges from Middle School. :)
I wish I could sleep a whole month. I think that's what I need to be truly relaxed.
Goodnight, world. It's been a wierd day.
I woke up, and double cheked the new archive, and I plan to burn them tomorrow. I took a shower, and read my newsgroups. Got back on a few forums that the old hard drive was keeping me offa.
Deener came over today, and we played some music (And wheeeeeee!), watched a million and a half Law & Order episodes (I counted SIX episodes on today. SIX!) And played some Street Fighter Alpha 3, and Capcom VS SNK. I miss playing with her...I almost feel like I trained her in these games. :)
I also was told what it was that broke us up...and I gotta admit, it was a worthy reason. Again, I'm my own worst enemy...and my problems simply overwhelmed me and drove her away. I'm very sad what happened happened, and I feel terrible for the reasons behind it.
I wish I wasn't wrong so often. For once, I'd like to be RIGHT. I'd like one, single, solitary day where everything I did came out golden, and I could have my friends over without making them sad or uncomfortable, or snipe. I don't htink this will ever happen. I honestly don't believe I'm destined to be happy. Lord knows, I've tried.
I miss her. Terribly.
But enough - I really should get to bed, I need to deposit some money in the bank tomorrow, and get up bright and early. Early being Noonish. I'm going to San Antonio, visit the parents...grab some boxes and pack.
Strangelove once told me that tmy entire time in State College was a tragedy. No. Texas is the tragedy. I love the state, I love Austin and San Antonio dearly, but Texas and 2001 have been outright hostile to me.
I know, I know, I'm beating a dead horse. That's another of my problems - I can't let anything go. I bear grudges from Middle School. :)
I wish I could sleep a whole month. I think that's what I need to be truly relaxed.
Goodnight, world. It's been a wierd day.
