I don't know if I'll be over being sad. I'm not just sad at being forced to move home. Normally, I'm a very happy person, and when I moved to Pennsylvania, I saw it as a Good Thing. The move to Austin was a Good Thing. If everything was right in the world, I'd see this as a good thing.
In April, my parents told me never to speak to them again. In May, my lover left me. In June, I lost my job. In July I lost my pet. Four right hooks that just floored me.
In August I got a job offer from Apple, which really lifted my mood, but I knew something was wrong when I realized I couldn't see the good side of Apple. I was self doubting and self deprecating about it. My parents began to talk to me again, but, again, I just couldn't lift myself out of the whole funk. Then Apple called and hit me with a baseball bat to the ribs, and I just fell.
Right now I'm in the middle of a DEEP DEEP depression. And I'd go see a shrink about if I had the money. I realize that I'm stuck in this mindset and can't get up out of it.
I'm trying to focus on the good things, but it just don't work sometimes...and little things get me very blue.
I will see the magic of possibility, one day. But I don't see it very soon.
eep...Jenn, I guess I haven't been reading long enough to have realized that you have all that on your plate... It's normal for the little things to weigh you down when you've got so much on your back you are sorting yout at the moment. *big hugs* be good to yourself*
Yikes! Jenn hon do you have enough $$ to see a doctor, a plain ole MD? Because if you';re in a deep deep depression that you can't get out of, then you got it bad, and you might need medication like me and Steve did to get out of it. Take care of yourself!!
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In April, my parents told me never to speak to them again. In May, my lover left me. In June, I lost my job. In July I lost my pet. Four right hooks that just floored me.
In August I got a job offer from Apple, which really lifted my mood, but I knew something was wrong when I realized I couldn't see the good side of Apple. I was self doubting and self deprecating about it. My parents began to talk to me again, but, again, I just couldn't lift myself out of the whole funk. Then Apple called and hit me with a baseball bat to the ribs, and I just fell.
Right now I'm in the middle of a DEEP DEEP depression. And I'd go see a shrink about if I had the money. I realize that I'm stuck in this mindset and can't get up out of it.
I'm trying to focus on the good things, but it just don't work sometimes...and little things get me very blue.
I will see the magic of possibility, one day. But I don't see it very soon.
Meh.
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*big hugs*
be good to yourself*
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[[[[[Jenn]]]]]
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I lay on the floor almost all day singing. And then, we moved.
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Yes, I talk to inanimate objects. :)
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(HUGGLE) I'm sorry, Jenn /_\