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dolariToday has just been one big TS day.
1) A friend of mine from Dell asked me how I knew enough to write Closetspace. I didn't think he was in the dark about me meing TS - so I told him. He didn't take it so well. I kinda htink he had a crush on me, and this really gave him a punch in the gut. Either way, now he's too embarrased to talk to me about it at all, even though he has questions he starts to ask...and then shuts up mid question. Poor guy. I've had good reactions and bad reactions but not "Throw them in a tizzy reactions."
2) Another TS friend of mine asked me if I thought she was really TS or not. I lived that nightmare before, and am only just now getting over it. I refused to answer wether I thought she was or not. The problem here is, I think she took my refusal to answer AS an answer. Not to mention that she's boxing herself in in a way that the only out of this box IS to be female. This really worries me. And I'm considering a hands-off on this person now. I don't want to give a gun and bullets to anyone else.
3) I spent most of the day talking via IM with the creator of Xanny's Curse (surprisingly NOT TS). The guy draws QUICK. In the time I pencilled 4 panels of Closetspace, he pencilled an entire strip AND a promo for Keenlight. Holy cow.
4) Speaking of Closetspace, I pencilled the entire comic and 5 of the 6 panels are now inked for Sunday. They are not what I planned. Originally, this would have been a Heidi episode and actually ENDED the Ties that Bind storyline. Instead I got an idea to "ramp up" Allison's story. She's deliberately stayed in the shadows the last episode because I want the focus on Heidi. However, she gave me a WONDERFUL counterpoint to Carrie's "going to bed." **SPOILER** I didn't realize this until Allison piped up as I was planning this episode, that she's pretty much been outed as a lesbian (of some sort). This was part of the original plan, and I should have her fret over it. On top of that, I should use it to elude to The Bigger Secret Allison has, while also adding a clue here and there as to what she's done. **END SPOILER** So we get an extra episode tacked on that ramps the story up a small notch, before the REAL beginning of the story, which is the episode after "The Big Show" which is coming up.
5) Before bed (a few minutes ago) I started thinking about my parents. The person who I was talking about "being boxed in" spilled the beans about being TS to an Uncle and the Whole Family Knowing now made me think about them. Nine years after I told them I was TS, I went home as a woman, and once mom got home, they let me have it. In my "shock" I made a very bad deal with them, that I quickly regretted. I told them I wouldn't tell any of the family members about me until my parents were ready to "explain" me. This day will never come. And I miss some of my cousins and family members. I've always had a reputation as a recluse (I was worried they wouldn't accept me, so I stayed home), and now I'm ready to say hello again...and I can't. It really hit me today, and made me sad. One cousin knows, but only because she trusted me with a rather scandalous secret out of the blue.
It's time for bed. We'll find out if we have Unisys jobs tomorrow.
1) A friend of mine from Dell asked me how I knew enough to write Closetspace. I didn't think he was in the dark about me meing TS - so I told him. He didn't take it so well. I kinda htink he had a crush on me, and this really gave him a punch in the gut. Either way, now he's too embarrased to talk to me about it at all, even though he has questions he starts to ask...and then shuts up mid question. Poor guy. I've had good reactions and bad reactions but not "Throw them in a tizzy reactions."
2) Another TS friend of mine asked me if I thought she was really TS or not. I lived that nightmare before, and am only just now getting over it. I refused to answer wether I thought she was or not. The problem here is, I think she took my refusal to answer AS an answer. Not to mention that she's boxing herself in in a way that the only out of this box IS to be female. This really worries me. And I'm considering a hands-off on this person now. I don't want to give a gun and bullets to anyone else.
3) I spent most of the day talking via IM with the creator of Xanny's Curse (surprisingly NOT TS). The guy draws QUICK. In the time I pencilled 4 panels of Closetspace, he pencilled an entire strip AND a promo for Keenlight. Holy cow.
4) Speaking of Closetspace, I pencilled the entire comic and 5 of the 6 panels are now inked for Sunday. They are not what I planned. Originally, this would have been a Heidi episode and actually ENDED the Ties that Bind storyline. Instead I got an idea to "ramp up" Allison's story. She's deliberately stayed in the shadows the last episode because I want the focus on Heidi. However, she gave me a WONDERFUL counterpoint to Carrie's "going to bed." **SPOILER** I didn't realize this until Allison piped up as I was planning this episode, that she's pretty much been outed as a lesbian (of some sort). This was part of the original plan, and I should have her fret over it. On top of that, I should use it to elude to The Bigger Secret Allison has, while also adding a clue here and there as to what she's done. **END SPOILER** So we get an extra episode tacked on that ramps the story up a small notch, before the REAL beginning of the story, which is the episode after "The Big Show" which is coming up.
5) Before bed (a few minutes ago) I started thinking about my parents. The person who I was talking about "being boxed in" spilled the beans about being TS to an Uncle and the Whole Family Knowing now made me think about them. Nine years after I told them I was TS, I went home as a woman, and once mom got home, they let me have it. In my "shock" I made a very bad deal with them, that I quickly regretted. I told them I wouldn't tell any of the family members about me until my parents were ready to "explain" me. This day will never come. And I miss some of my cousins and family members. I've always had a reputation as a recluse (I was worried they wouldn't accept me, so I stayed home), and now I'm ready to say hello again...and I can't. It really hit me today, and made me sad. One cousin knows, but only because she trusted me with a rather scandalous secret out of the blue.
It's time for bed. We'll find out if we have Unisys jobs tomorrow.
