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Jan. 1st, 2012 11:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dolariWith all the weight loss, my mood lightening thanks to the anti depressants, I've felt in a better headspace than I have in years.
To the point that I'm making a huge effort to look nice again. Back in the day, I used to dress nice all the time. Professional outfits, nice shoes, full makeup. I was usually overdressed compared to my colleagues in technical support who were used to T-Shirts and jeans outfits.
I got out of that after moving to Seattle, and having to make a half mile walk as a nicely made up woman at 11PM through downtown. Downtown Seattle, particularly where we were, wasn't a dangerous spot, but many of the homeless there had mental issues. It made for a very worrisome walk, and while some of the homeless walked with me as "protection," once I got pawed and had my hair "felt up" by one, I decided to stop.
I'd already started ramping down looking nice after the night I dressed to the nines and was "Sirred" the entire night (HOW DO YOU SIR SOMEONE IN MAKEUP AND A DRESS?!), and htat was the nail in the coffin. T-shirt and Jeans from that point on.
When I came down to Texas, for vacations, I usually wore my more gender neutral clothes. But, really, it wasn't a far cry from what I wore everyday anyways. This last trip down, I brought the same gender neutral clothes, not expecting to come out to the family. Once I did, I had to make for the best first impressions I could.
My first meeting with an uncle was in my female clothes with a nice neutral blouse, but still jeans and sneakers. When it became clear that I wasn't just coming out to his family, but hte WHOLE family, and in a series of parties, I realized I needed to go out of my way to set the right tone for how the rest of our relationships would go.
With that, I bought a nice jean skirt and boots, got some tops from Steph, and even some makeup (I'd left my long unused makeup at home). I thought I looked nice, and my confidence really began to build again.
Since then, I've gone out of my way to look nice again. Dressing up for work, going to see friends in nice clothes. It's really making me feel great again, and I like to think I look pretty decent in it.
Gonna go out of my way this year to keep it up. Who knows, maybe I'll even get the hang of using eye makeup. Never was able to get that right....
To the point that I'm making a huge effort to look nice again. Back in the day, I used to dress nice all the time. Professional outfits, nice shoes, full makeup. I was usually overdressed compared to my colleagues in technical support who were used to T-Shirts and jeans outfits.
I got out of that after moving to Seattle, and having to make a half mile walk as a nicely made up woman at 11PM through downtown. Downtown Seattle, particularly where we were, wasn't a dangerous spot, but many of the homeless there had mental issues. It made for a very worrisome walk, and while some of the homeless walked with me as "protection," once I got pawed and had my hair "felt up" by one, I decided to stop.
I'd already started ramping down looking nice after the night I dressed to the nines and was "Sirred" the entire night (HOW DO YOU SIR SOMEONE IN MAKEUP AND A DRESS?!), and htat was the nail in the coffin. T-shirt and Jeans from that point on.
When I came down to Texas, for vacations, I usually wore my more gender neutral clothes. But, really, it wasn't a far cry from what I wore everyday anyways. This last trip down, I brought the same gender neutral clothes, not expecting to come out to the family. Once I did, I had to make for the best first impressions I could.
My first meeting with an uncle was in my female clothes with a nice neutral blouse, but still jeans and sneakers. When it became clear that I wasn't just coming out to his family, but hte WHOLE family, and in a series of parties, I realized I needed to go out of my way to set the right tone for how the rest of our relationships would go.
With that, I bought a nice jean skirt and boots, got some tops from Steph, and even some makeup (I'd left my long unused makeup at home). I thought I looked nice, and my confidence really began to build again.
Since then, I've gone out of my way to look nice again. Dressing up for work, going to see friends in nice clothes. It's really making me feel great again, and I like to think I look pretty decent in it.
Gonna go out of my way this year to keep it up. Who knows, maybe I'll even get the hang of using eye makeup. Never was able to get that right....
