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Feb. 19th, 2012 09:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dolariIt's wierd.
I was at a washroom at work, getting ready to leave, when I looked in the mirror. I saw me staring back, as usual. I was dressed rather nicely, wearing a faux wraparound blouse. Full makeup. Hair nicely taken care of.
I don't like mirrors. Usually when I catch glimpses of myself like this, I grimace. The realities of going through puberty as a male left a lot of irreparable physical damage on me I don't care to be reminded of. Looking into mirrors reminds me that, while I'm very close to being me, I'm still very very far away.
Today, I looked at that reflection. And. Well. I'm okay with it. It's not perfect. And far from ideal. But, it's not all bad. And this isn't the first time I've had that feeling looking in the mirror.
I'm guessing that coming out to my family has helped me accept ME. The last major block of people who remember me as my male self, now know me as my female self. And I think the knowledge that there's no need to go back to the old me, has made it easier to BE me.
I like this feeling. :)
I was at a washroom at work, getting ready to leave, when I looked in the mirror. I saw me staring back, as usual. I was dressed rather nicely, wearing a faux wraparound blouse. Full makeup. Hair nicely taken care of.
I don't like mirrors. Usually when I catch glimpses of myself like this, I grimace. The realities of going through puberty as a male left a lot of irreparable physical damage on me I don't care to be reminded of. Looking into mirrors reminds me that, while I'm very close to being me, I'm still very very far away.
Today, I looked at that reflection. And. Well. I'm okay with it. It's not perfect. And far from ideal. But, it's not all bad. And this isn't the first time I've had that feeling looking in the mirror.
I'm guessing that coming out to my family has helped me accept ME. The last major block of people who remember me as my male self, now know me as my female self. And I think the knowledge that there's no need to go back to the old me, has made it easier to BE me.
I like this feeling. :)
