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dolariThe reaction to quitting has been very good from my friends. Most are telling me the situation had become incredibly toxic, and I needed out way before I did. A friend mentioned today that I'd gone from "working a terrible job, and not making ends meet" to just "not making ends meet." And, to be honest, that is a step up.
Today, I told myself, was going to be a day off. No work. Just relax and detox. Work was now going to be drawing and writing until I could find another job. Instead, I worked today - drawing. It felt so GOOD to just finally sit down and draw for hours. My livestream test ended up being a fullfledged drawing marathon. So I worked my day off. And enjoyed it.
I have a Patreon account. I doubt it will give me the money to stay in Austin. But it will help pay bills, I'm hoping. It's looking like staying in Austin is going to be a lost cause. Most jobs I'm qualified for are going, in Austin, for $10-12/hr. Jobs that I can get with a little study and experience, $13-15. If Patreon can make up the difference, staying in Austin may be possible.
But I'm considering Austin a lost cause. I doubt, even with a job in Austin, I can afford it here any more. Which means that leaving Nintendo was all for naught. I didn't leave Nintendo to live in San Antonio.
My hope is that maybe I can stay with my parents, use Patreon to fund some cash my way and help out with the folks, and use the time to draw and write and build up SOMETHING with my writing and/or art skills. If Nintendo will take me back (and I'm starting to doubt that, now that I've walked off a job with the same temp company that would be hiring me back at Nintendo, not to mention my faith in staying with them long-term has been broken) there is also that.
Unlike all the other times I've been unemployed, though - this time I'm not anxious. The worst I can do is fail - and I've done that and survived several times already.
The help did arrive.
Today, I told myself, was going to be a day off. No work. Just relax and detox. Work was now going to be drawing and writing until I could find another job. Instead, I worked today - drawing. It felt so GOOD to just finally sit down and draw for hours. My livestream test ended up being a fullfledged drawing marathon. So I worked my day off. And enjoyed it.
I have a Patreon account. I doubt it will give me the money to stay in Austin. But it will help pay bills, I'm hoping. It's looking like staying in Austin is going to be a lost cause. Most jobs I'm qualified for are going, in Austin, for $10-12/hr. Jobs that I can get with a little study and experience, $13-15. If Patreon can make up the difference, staying in Austin may be possible.
But I'm considering Austin a lost cause. I doubt, even with a job in Austin, I can afford it here any more. Which means that leaving Nintendo was all for naught. I didn't leave Nintendo to live in San Antonio.
My hope is that maybe I can stay with my parents, use Patreon to fund some cash my way and help out with the folks, and use the time to draw and write and build up SOMETHING with my writing and/or art skills. If Nintendo will take me back (and I'm starting to doubt that, now that I've walked off a job with the same temp company that would be hiring me back at Nintendo, not to mention my faith in staying with them long-term has been broken) there is also that.
Unlike all the other times I've been unemployed, though - this time I'm not anxious. The worst I can do is fail - and I've done that and survived several times already.
The help did arrive.
