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Sep. 5th, 2017 12:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dolariI have been away from Second Life for a little bit. Not nearly the several years where I disappeared. Just a few months since July. And a few months before that July spate of visits.
Well...I've run into a bit a of a problem. Nothing serious. Just something that gives me pause. A very long pause.
You see...in Second Life...I'm...well...dead. I am the wandering ghost of Carrie Talaj, resurrected several years after her death and now haunting the grid. Which is exactly how I feel in Second Life, honestly. Helps me feel "normal" on the grid if anything there can be normal.
My sister died back in March. Being "dead" in Second Life feels wierd now. Before her death, zooming around Second Life as the ghost of Carrie Talaj was just a reflection of how I felt in-world. Now it has an extra conotation, now that my sister is gone.
I did finally manage to fire up the viewer in July...and began haunting again...when someone said my being "dead" in SL made her very sad and reminded her of a relative who died. I apologized, comforted her as best I could, then went away for another two months.
I chose the ghost avatar because it's how I feel in Second Life. I kept with it after Marisa died because I could deal with it, even if it felt wierd. I dunno if I can keep it up, though, if it's upsetting other people. It's only the second complaint I've had since I came back to SL as The Ghost, but the first where even I've felt wierd about it....
Well...I've run into a bit a of a problem. Nothing serious. Just something that gives me pause. A very long pause.
You see...in Second Life...I'm...well...dead. I am the wandering ghost of Carrie Talaj, resurrected several years after her death and now haunting the grid. Which is exactly how I feel in Second Life, honestly. Helps me feel "normal" on the grid if anything there can be normal.
My sister died back in March. Being "dead" in Second Life feels wierd now. Before her death, zooming around Second Life as the ghost of Carrie Talaj was just a reflection of how I felt in-world. Now it has an extra conotation, now that my sister is gone.
I did finally manage to fire up the viewer in July...and began haunting again...when someone said my being "dead" in SL made her very sad and reminded her of a relative who died. I apologized, comforted her as best I could, then went away for another two months.
I chose the ghost avatar because it's how I feel in Second Life. I kept with it after Marisa died because I could deal with it, even if it felt wierd. I dunno if I can keep it up, though, if it's upsetting other people. It's only the second complaint I've had since I came back to SL as The Ghost, but the first where even I've felt wierd about it....
