Love! Brings! RAINBOWS!
Aug. 23rd, 2005 06:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dolariTODAY'S BIKE RIDE!
Total Miles Ridden: 40
Today: 4.2
Today's Time: 29:27
Average MPH: 8.5
Today's Max MPH: 17.6
The other day, the Max MPH was 28MPH. I didn't post it because, well, it wasn't voluntary. It was one of those things where momentum+mass=Inability for Brakes to Slow Down Bike. I gave up trying to brake got in the middle of the road, and prayed I wouldn't hit a pothole.
I've done 60MPH ONCE. I was about 15, and my dad "launched" me off the truck (I held onto the door handle till we hit about 30, and then dove down a steep hill. I hit 60 at the bottom, the bike was vibrating, I was rock still trying to stay straight on the road and I decided that I would only do that again if it was because I had nothing left to live for.
Anyways, the good news about the ride is, after 30 minutes on fairly flat road, I wasn't winded at all I'll try for 45 the next time. The bad news, though, is the pencil tip lodged in my left leg is RIGHT on a tendon I use to pump when I'm pushing up a hill on my toes. This wasn't a shooting pain, but definately an "I'm here and you're moving me around!" ache. Hopefully this'll either go away, or I'l llearn to ignore it.
Emily and I have now known each other upwards of a year. August 12th, 2004 was the night she and I first talked directly to each other (If you can call an IM talking directly). She had had a serious nightmare, and I was the only person she had on her AIM list that was on (it's part of the contact info on my site). It was a quick little chat, mainly letting her talk to me about the dream to let it all out. She was "Another who just needed a hig or two after a bad night."
When she first IMmed me, there was a bit of "Excuse me, pardon me" and so on, because she knew I had no idea who she was. I think she was taken a bit aback when I IMmed her the next time I saw her to make sure everything was alright. A year later, we still IM each other everynight, and hatch plots and schemes to see each other again.
Best consequence of a nightmare ever. :)
I woke up the other day to VH1's "I Love the 80s" show, showcasing 1985. Not many people know that if I had my druthers, I'd live in Stan's fantasy world. :) ::nostalgic::
Something big came up this weekend. Something I'm still worried about. In short - a grand-uncle died, my Tio Pepe. My sister told me minutes after choked on that indian food, so I talked with her for a while, I didn't feel it was right to not tell her how much I appreciated her al these years moments after a deathly situation. It turns out that my family really wanted me to be there at his funeral.
This is where it gets incredibly off. I have had since a VERY young age a reputation as a recluse. I didn't like being around family, mainly because there were just thousands of them (I kid you not) and because I knew in that kind of family, coming out as TS was gonna smack me (I'd already been beated up by a cousin once). Times have changed, and I'm not nearly as meek or scared as I was before, and have been considering rebuilding some family bridges with those who'd help build them.
The main push for this is the horrible realization that if my father was to die tomorrow, I'd HAVE to be at his funeral, and out myself at the same time. Not a good time to show the folks "Look what I grew over the summer."
Some of my family know something is "off." Some of those have come to me to let me know that I'm welcome no matter what that is. Others have asked my parents if I'm gay (Sure, but in what direction?) And still others have run off a family member for being gay. Full spectrum here.
My thing is...do I tell them what's going on with me, and that I'm doing WELL and BETTER than I was before (They remember a mousy introverted young man, not the outgoing almost jolly woman I've been for ten years). Or do I dump them like yesterday's garbage? Or don't want to do that - I've recently made some serious peace with my own parents. Is it time to reach around, and see who else is out there that might nibble at the bait?
Working on a guest strip for a friend all week. I'll letcha know what up and when.
Go here. In the Search box in the upper right hand corner, enter the year you graduated from high school. The first item returned should be the 100 songs from that year. Cut and paste them into your journal. Bold the ones you like. Underline your favorite. Strike through the songs you loathe. Italicize the ones you can't remember. Leave it untagged if you're without an opinion.
Top 100 Hits of 1992 / Top 100 Songs of 1992
1. End Of The Road, Boyz II Men
2. Baby Got Back, Sir Mix A-lot
3. Jump, Kris Kross
4. Save The Best For Last, Vanessa Williams
5. Baby-Baby-Baby, TLC
6. Tears In Heaven, Eric Clapton
7. My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It), En Vogue
8. Under The Bridge, Red Hot Chili Peppers
9. All 4 Love, Color Me Badd
10. Just Another Day, Jon Secada
11. I Love Your Smile, Shanice
12. To Be With You, Mr. Big
13. I'm Too Sexy, Right Said Fred
14. Black Or White, Michael Jackson
15. Achy Breaky Heart, Billy Ray Cyrus 16.
16. I'll Be There, Mariah Carey
17. November Rain, Guns N' Roses
18. Life Is A Highway, Tom Cochrane
19. Remember The Time, Michael Jackson
20. Finally, CeCe Peniston
21. This Used To Be My Playground, Madonna
22. Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough, Patty Smyth
23. Can't Let Go, Mariah Carey
24. Jump Around, House Of Pain
25. Diamonds and Pearls, Prince and The N.P.G.
26. Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me, George Michael and Elton John
27. Masterpiece, Atlantic Starr
28. If You Asked Me To, Celine Dion
29. Giving Him Something He Can Feel, En Vogue
30. Live and Learn, Joe Public
31. Come and Talk To Me, Jodeci
32. Smells Like Teen Spirit, Nirvana
33. Humpin' Around, Bobby Brown
34. Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover, Sophie B. Hawkins
35. Tell Me What You Want Me To Do, Teven Campbell
36. Ain't 2 Proud 2 Beg, TLC
37. It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday, Boyz II Men
38. Move This, Technotronic
39. Bohemian Rhapsody, Queen
40. Tennessee, Arrested Development
41. The Best Things In Life Are Free, Luther Vandross and Janet Jackson
42. Make It Happen, Mariah Carey
43. The One, Elton John
44. Set Adrift On Memory Bliss, P.M. Dawn
45. Stay, Shakespear's Sister
46. 2 Legit 2 Quit, Hammer
47. Please Don't Go, K.W.S.
48. Breakin' My Heart (Pretty Brown Eyes), Mint Condition
49. Wishing On A Star, Cover Girls
50. She's Playing Hard To Get, Hi-Five
51. I'd Die Without You, P.M. Dawn
52. Good For Me, Amy Grant
53. All I Want, Toad The Wet Sprocket
54. When A Man Loves A Woman, Michael Bolton
55. I Can't Dance, Genesis
56. Hazard, Richard Marx
57. Mysterious Ways, U2
58. Too Funky, George Michael
59. How Do You Talk To An Angel, Heights
60. One, U2
61. Keep On Walkin', CeCe Peniston
62. Hold On My Heart, Genesis
63. The Way I Feel About You, Karyn White
64. Beauty and The Beast, Calms Dion and Peabo Bryson
65. Warm It Up, Kris Kross
66. In The Closet, Michael Jackson
67. People Everyday, Arrested Development
68. No Son Of Nine, Genesis
69. Wildside, Marky Mark and The Funky Bunch
70. Do I Have To Say The Words?, Bryan Adams
71. Friday I'm In Love, Cure
72. Everything About You, Ugly Kid Joe
73. Blowing Kisses In The Wind, Paula Abdul
74. Thought I'd Died and Gone To Heaven, Bryan Adams
75. Rhythm Is A Dancer, Snap
76. Addams Groove, Hammer
77. Missing You Now, Michael Bolton
78. Back To The Hotel, N2Deep
79. Everything Changes, Kathy Troccoli
80. Have You Ever Needed Somone So Bad, Def Leppard
81. Take This Heart, Richard Marx
82. When I Look Into Your Eyes, Firehouse
83. I Wanna Love You, Jade
84. Uhh Ahh, Boyz II Men
85. Real Love, Mary J. Blige
86. Justified and Ancient, The KLF
87. Slow Motion, Color Me Badd
88. What About Your Friends, TLC
89. Thinkin' Back, Color Me Badd
90. Would I Lie To You?, Charles and Eddie
91. That's What Love Is For, Amy Grant
92. Keep Coming Back, Richard Marx
93. Free Your Mind, En Vogue
94. Keep It Comin', Keith Sweat
95. Just Take My Heart, Mr. Big
96. I Will Remember You, Amy Grant
97. We Got A Love Thang, CeCe Peniston
98. Let's Get Rocked, Def Leppard
99. They Want EFX, Das EFX
100. I Can't Make You Love Me, Bonnie Raitt
Total Miles Ridden: 40
Today: 4.2
Today's Time: 29:27
Average MPH: 8.5
Today's Max MPH: 17.6
The other day, the Max MPH was 28MPH. I didn't post it because, well, it wasn't voluntary. It was one of those things where momentum+mass=Inability for Brakes to Slow Down Bike. I gave up trying to brake got in the middle of the road, and prayed I wouldn't hit a pothole.
I've done 60MPH ONCE. I was about 15, and my dad "launched" me off the truck (I held onto the door handle till we hit about 30, and then dove down a steep hill. I hit 60 at the bottom, the bike was vibrating, I was rock still trying to stay straight on the road and I decided that I would only do that again if it was because I had nothing left to live for.
Anyways, the good news about the ride is, after 30 minutes on fairly flat road, I wasn't winded at all I'll try for 45 the next time. The bad news, though, is the pencil tip lodged in my left leg is RIGHT on a tendon I use to pump when I'm pushing up a hill on my toes. This wasn't a shooting pain, but definately an "I'm here and you're moving me around!" ache. Hopefully this'll either go away, or I'l llearn to ignore it.
Emily and I have now known each other upwards of a year. August 12th, 2004 was the night she and I first talked directly to each other (If you can call an IM talking directly). She had had a serious nightmare, and I was the only person she had on her AIM list that was on (it's part of the contact info on my site). It was a quick little chat, mainly letting her talk to me about the dream to let it all out. She was "Another who just needed a hig or two after a bad night."
When she first IMmed me, there was a bit of "Excuse me, pardon me" and so on, because she knew I had no idea who she was. I think she was taken a bit aback when I IMmed her the next time I saw her to make sure everything was alright. A year later, we still IM each other everynight, and hatch plots and schemes to see each other again.
Best consequence of a nightmare ever. :)
I woke up the other day to VH1's "I Love the 80s" show, showcasing 1985. Not many people know that if I had my druthers, I'd live in Stan's fantasy world. :) ::nostalgic::
Something big came up this weekend. Something I'm still worried about. In short - a grand-uncle died, my Tio Pepe. My sister told me minutes after choked on that indian food, so I talked with her for a while, I didn't feel it was right to not tell her how much I appreciated her al these years moments after a deathly situation. It turns out that my family really wanted me to be there at his funeral.
This is where it gets incredibly off. I have had since a VERY young age a reputation as a recluse. I didn't like being around family, mainly because there were just thousands of them (I kid you not) and because I knew in that kind of family, coming out as TS was gonna smack me (I'd already been beated up by a cousin once). Times have changed, and I'm not nearly as meek or scared as I was before, and have been considering rebuilding some family bridges with those who'd help build them.
The main push for this is the horrible realization that if my father was to die tomorrow, I'd HAVE to be at his funeral, and out myself at the same time. Not a good time to show the folks "Look what I grew over the summer."
Some of my family know something is "off." Some of those have come to me to let me know that I'm welcome no matter what that is. Others have asked my parents if I'm gay (Sure, but in what direction?) And still others have run off a family member for being gay. Full spectrum here.
My thing is...do I tell them what's going on with me, and that I'm doing WELL and BETTER than I was before (They remember a mousy introverted young man, not the outgoing almost jolly woman I've been for ten years). Or do I dump them like yesterday's garbage? Or don't want to do that - I've recently made some serious peace with my own parents. Is it time to reach around, and see who else is out there that might nibble at the bait?
Working on a guest strip for a friend all week. I'll letcha know what up and when.
Go here. In the Search box in the upper right hand corner, enter the year you graduated from high school. The first item returned should be the 100 songs from that year. Cut and paste them into your journal. Bold the ones you like. Underline your favorite. Strike through the songs you loathe. Italicize the ones you can't remember. Leave it untagged if you're without an opinion.
Top 100 Hits of 1992 / Top 100 Songs of 1992
1. End Of The Road, Boyz II Men
2. Baby Got Back, Sir Mix A-lot
3. Jump, Kris Kross
4. Save The Best For Last, Vanessa Williams
5. Baby-Baby-Baby, TLC
6. Tears In Heaven, Eric Clapton
7. My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It), En Vogue
8. Under The Bridge, Red Hot Chili Peppers
9. All 4 Love, Color Me Badd
10. Just Another Day, Jon Secada
11. I Love Your Smile, Shanice
12. To Be With You, Mr. Big
13. I'm Too Sexy, Right Said Fred
14. Black Or White, Michael Jackson
16. I'll Be There, Mariah Carey
17. November Rain, Guns N' Roses
18. Life Is A Highway, Tom Cochrane
19. Remember The Time, Michael Jackson
20. Finally, CeCe Peniston
21. This Used To Be My Playground, Madonna
22. Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough, Patty Smyth
23. Can't Let Go, Mariah Carey
24. Jump Around, House Of Pain
25. Diamonds and Pearls, Prince and The N.P.G.
26. Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me, George Michael and Elton John
27. Masterpiece, Atlantic Starr
28. If You Asked Me To, Celine Dion
29. Giving Him Something He Can Feel, En Vogue
30. Live and Learn, Joe Public
31. Come and Talk To Me, Jodeci
32. Smells Like Teen Spirit, Nirvana
33. Humpin' Around, Bobby Brown
34. Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover, Sophie B. Hawkins
35. Tell Me What You Want Me To Do, Teven Campbell
36. Ain't 2 Proud 2 Beg, TLC
37. It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday, Boyz II Men
38. Move This, Technotronic
39. Bohemian Rhapsody, Queen
40. Tennessee, Arrested Development
41. The Best Things In Life Are Free, Luther Vandross and Janet Jackson
42. Make It Happen, Mariah Carey
43. The One, Elton John
44. Set Adrift On Memory Bliss, P.M. Dawn
45. Stay, Shakespear's Sister
46. 2 Legit 2 Quit, Hammer
47. Please Don't Go, K.W.S.
48. Breakin' My Heart (Pretty Brown Eyes), Mint Condition
49. Wishing On A Star, Cover Girls
50. She's Playing Hard To Get, Hi-Five
51. I'd Die Without You, P.M. Dawn
52. Good For Me, Amy Grant
53. All I Want, Toad The Wet Sprocket
54. When A Man Loves A Woman, Michael Bolton
55. I Can't Dance, Genesis
56. Hazard, Richard Marx
57. Mysterious Ways, U2
58. Too Funky, George Michael
59. How Do You Talk To An Angel, Heights
60. One, U2
61. Keep On Walkin', CeCe Peniston
62. Hold On My Heart, Genesis
63. The Way I Feel About You, Karyn White
64. Beauty and The Beast, Calms Dion and Peabo Bryson
65. Warm It Up, Kris Kross
66. In The Closet, Michael Jackson
67. People Everyday, Arrested Development
68. No Son Of Nine, Genesis
69. Wildside, Marky Mark and The Funky Bunch
70. Do I Have To Say The Words?, Bryan Adams
71. Friday I'm In Love, Cure
72. Everything About You, Ugly Kid Joe
73. Blowing Kisses In The Wind, Paula Abdul
74. Thought I'd Died and Gone To Heaven, Bryan Adams
75. Rhythm Is A Dancer, Snap
76. Addams Groove, Hammer
77. Missing You Now, Michael Bolton
78. Back To The Hotel, N2Deep
79. Everything Changes, Kathy Troccoli
80. Have You Ever Needed Somone So Bad, Def Leppard
81. Take This Heart, Richard Marx
82. When I Look Into Your Eyes, Firehouse
83. I Wanna Love You, Jade
84. Uhh Ahh, Boyz II Men
85. Real Love, Mary J. Blige
86. Justified and Ancient, The KLF
87. Slow Motion, Color Me Badd
88. What About Your Friends, TLC
89. Thinkin' Back, Color Me Badd
90. Would I Lie To You?, Charles and Eddie
91. That's What Love Is For, Amy Grant
92. Keep Coming Back, Richard Marx
93. Free Your Mind, En Vogue
94. Keep It Comin', Keith Sweat
95. Just Take My Heart, Mr. Big
96. I Will Remember You, Amy Grant
97. We Got A Love Thang, CeCe Peniston
98. Let's Get Rocked, Def Leppard
99. They Want EFX, Das EFX
100. I Can't Make You Love Me, Bonnie Raitt
