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YEsterday I woke up bright an early (Noonish) to take another blood test. So I took a shower, cleaned myself up and then promptly remembered I shouldn't do it till next week.
So instead I decided to have some breakfast (I'd been fasting for 12 hours for the test). I don't usually like to go out and eat, mainly because I don't like being the evening's entertainment. But I figured what the heck - I'm already gussied up, might as well make a day of it.
I ordered some breakfast, and pulled out a book to wait for the food (my usual "If I don't SEE them laughing at me, they're not laughing at me" defense). Suddenly out of the blue, someone yanks on my hair.
"Yoo haff such bootiful hair."
I nearly climbed the wall. Turns out it was just some oldish woman who was very nosy and wanted to feel my hair. I get that more than most. Lots of people want to play with my hair for some reason. My friend Ruby used to pull on my ringlets and watch them snap back.
Anyways, that was my Yesterday Story.
I've been hacing sme wierd night stuff going on. One thing is I stopped taking my Spiranolactone before bed in an effort to keep my sanity. It makes me pee. A LOT. LEaving me waking up in the morning with no water in my system at all. My sinuses and eyes literally STING from no water in my system.
So I started taking them when I'm waking up, and it's made a world of difference. Although I'm not sure I like what I'm getting.
The last few days, I've been having dreams about my extended family. While my relationship with my immediate family is pretty strained, my extended family is rather fun to hang around. Then again, my immediate family knows, and the rest do not.
I've been having dreams where my extended family has been welcoming me to one of their Big Gettogether PArties. These parties usually involve at LEAST 50 to 100 people showing up and having a massive barbecue. Most of them are very happy to see me, and more than one or two seem to know about me. And while a few are a happy, the others are disgusted by me.
Just today, I had a dream that I was talking with one of my cousins, who has always had a depression problem, about my woes as well, and that she wasn't alone in being depressed. I've always wanted to tell her this, since she's literally ALWAYS on the verge of tears. I dreamed that I told her, and instead of trying to find some strength in me, she basicall kicked my ass for being a freak.
And while she prolly wouldn't do that in real life, sadly, many others would.
Also, I've been getting this wierd feeling that there's someone in my room with me. It starts just before bed, where I feel someone watching me. I force myself to ignore it, but on more than one occasion, I've woken up in the middle of the night (or day) and sworn there was someone in the room with me.
Maybe I should go back to taking my pills before bed. :)
So instead I decided to have some breakfast (I'd been fasting for 12 hours for the test). I don't usually like to go out and eat, mainly because I don't like being the evening's entertainment. But I figured what the heck - I'm already gussied up, might as well make a day of it.
I ordered some breakfast, and pulled out a book to wait for the food (my usual "If I don't SEE them laughing at me, they're not laughing at me" defense). Suddenly out of the blue, someone yanks on my hair.
"Yoo haff such bootiful hair."
I nearly climbed the wall. Turns out it was just some oldish woman who was very nosy and wanted to feel my hair. I get that more than most. Lots of people want to play with my hair for some reason. My friend Ruby used to pull on my ringlets and watch them snap back.
Anyways, that was my Yesterday Story.
I've been hacing sme wierd night stuff going on. One thing is I stopped taking my Spiranolactone before bed in an effort to keep my sanity. It makes me pee. A LOT. LEaving me waking up in the morning with no water in my system at all. My sinuses and eyes literally STING from no water in my system.
So I started taking them when I'm waking up, and it's made a world of difference. Although I'm not sure I like what I'm getting.
The last few days, I've been having dreams about my extended family. While my relationship with my immediate family is pretty strained, my extended family is rather fun to hang around. Then again, my immediate family knows, and the rest do not.
I've been having dreams where my extended family has been welcoming me to one of their Big Gettogether PArties. These parties usually involve at LEAST 50 to 100 people showing up and having a massive barbecue. Most of them are very happy to see me, and more than one or two seem to know about me. And while a few are a happy, the others are disgusted by me.
Just today, I had a dream that I was talking with one of my cousins, who has always had a depression problem, about my woes as well, and that she wasn't alone in being depressed. I've always wanted to tell her this, since she's literally ALWAYS on the verge of tears. I dreamed that I told her, and instead of trying to find some strength in me, she basicall kicked my ass for being a freak.
And while she prolly wouldn't do that in real life, sadly, many others would.
Also, I've been getting this wierd feeling that there's someone in my room with me. It starts just before bed, where I feel someone watching me. I force myself to ignore it, but on more than one occasion, I've woken up in the middle of the night (or day) and sworn there was someone in the room with me.
Maybe I should go back to taking my pills before bed. :)
