Ah, nothing like a quick session of IRC to remind me why I haven't been on IRC in a year. I should

I will be paying my rent today.

Thank y'all. ^_^

Sighting #7 - http://www.livejournal.com/users/gwenners/27562.html

A thankfully uneventful day, although my chin's still a little sore. Hopefully another nice slow day of nothing will cure that.

Ah, nothing like a quick session of IRC to remind me why I haven't been on IRC in a year. I should

I will be paying my rent today.

Thank y'all. ^_^

Sighting #7 - http://www.livejournal.com/users/gwenners/27562.html

A thankfully uneventful day, although my chin's still a little sore. Hopefully another nice slow day of nothing will cure that.

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Note to self - meditation before bed is not a good idea: it makes you even MORE awake when you get up.

I did have another bad dream last night, only this time I fought back a bit. I was staying with some woman who loved and doted over me, and her husband and sons were all neo Nazis chomping at the bit to kill me. The mother who loved me was the only reason I was still alive. I tried to leave the house, but as soon as she left their sight, they demanded with a two by four that I give them my insurance papers for the truck. When I said no, they tried to trap me with this sticky plastic sheeting. I managed to grab it and rip it, which shocked them a bit. I got in the truck and drove off...only to find myself back in the house with the woman.

A week of dreams like this...and ading a few strange noises going on here and there that I've never noticed before have me kinda wondering what's going on around here. When I did some meditation, I actually had to stop because I felt like something was in a position to bite the physical me and I needed to push it away.

I don't know if this is any outside influence or what...sometimes in my meditations, I'll be talking to my guide, and she'll turn into a monster and then the "real" guide will appear next to the monster and beat the crap out of it. Then the person will tell me to stop turning her into a monster and continue...only to turn into a monster again. Although that isn't just restricted to this week, I've always had that problem.

This week has been particularly bad and before bed, I get these terrible nasty throughts in my head about horrible horrible things. It kinda worries me. I've done all my protections to the best of my ability though...the problem is, I don't think I really have the faith to keep it up...and it worries me. I'm hoping this is all just crushing stress from the last two weeks.

In this last meditation, we looked around to see if anything had "attached" to me, and we couldn't find anything. Either way, we made sure nothing was connected, centered, and now I feel SOMEWHAT better.... I think I'm going to sleep with the TV on, though....

::Rereads what I just wrote:: Oi...I sound like such a nutter....

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Note to self - meditation before bed is not a good idea: it makes you even MORE awake when you get up.

I did have another bad dream last night, only this time I fought back a bit. I was staying with some woman who loved and doted over me, and her husband and sons were all neo Nazis chomping at the bit to kill me. The mother who loved me was the only reason I was still alive. I tried to leave the house, but as soon as she left their sight, they demanded with a two by four that I give them my insurance papers for the truck. When I said no, they tried to trap me with this sticky plastic sheeting. I managed to grab it and rip it, which shocked them a bit. I got in the truck and drove off...only to find myself back in the house with the woman.

A week of dreams like this...and ading a few strange noises going on here and there that I've never noticed before have me kinda wondering what's going on around here. When I did some meditation, I actually had to stop because I felt like something was in a position to bite the physical me and I needed to push it away.

I don't know if this is any outside influence or what...sometimes in my meditations, I'll be talking to my guide, and she'll turn into a monster and then the "real" guide will appear next to the monster and beat the crap out of it. Then the person will tell me to stop turning her into a monster and continue...only to turn into a monster again. Although that isn't just restricted to this week, I've always had that problem.

This week has been particularly bad and before bed, I get these terrible nasty throughts in my head about horrible horrible things. It kinda worries me. I've done all my protections to the best of my ability though...the problem is, I don't think I really have the faith to keep it up...and it worries me. I'm hoping this is all just crushing stress from the last two weeks.

In this last meditation, we looked around to see if anything had "attached" to me, and we couldn't find anything. Either way, we made sure nothing was connected, centered, and now I feel SOMEWHAT better.... I think I'm going to sleep with the TV on, though....

::Rereads what I just wrote:: Oi...I sound like such a nutter....