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[dolari]

Note to self - meditation before bed is not a good idea: it makes you even MORE awake when you get up.

I did have another bad dream last night, only this time I fought back a bit. I was staying with some woman who loved and doted over me, and her husband and sons were all neo Nazis chomping at the bit to kill me. The mother who loved me was the only reason I was still alive. I tried to leave the house, but as soon as she left their sight, they demanded with a two by four that I give them my insurance papers for the truck. When I said no, they tried to trap me with this sticky plastic sheeting. I managed to grab it and rip it, which shocked them a bit. I got in the truck and drove off...only to find myself back in the house with the woman.

A week of dreams like this...and ading a few strange noises going on here and there that I've never noticed before have me kinda wondering what's going on around here. When I did some meditation, I actually had to stop because I felt like something was in a position to bite the physical me and I needed to push it away.

I don't know if this is any outside influence or what...sometimes in my meditations, I'll be talking to my guide, and she'll turn into a monster and then the "real" guide will appear next to the monster and beat the crap out of it. Then the person will tell me to stop turning her into a monster and continue...only to turn into a monster again. Although that isn't just restricted to this week, I've always had that problem.

This week has been particularly bad and before bed, I get these terrible nasty throughts in my head about horrible horrible things. It kinda worries me. I've done all my protections to the best of my ability though...the problem is, I don't think I really have the faith to keep it up...and it worries me. I'm hoping this is all just crushing stress from the last two weeks.

In this last meditation, we looked around to see if anything had "attached" to me, and we couldn't find anything. Either way, we made sure nothing was connected, centered, and now I feel SOMEWHAT better.... I think I'm going to sleep with the TV on, though....

::Rereads what I just wrote:: Oi...I sound like such a nutter....

Comments

[wyndhover.livejournal.com]

You do not sound like a nutter.

[emilydm.livejournal.com]

::hugs tight:: I know how hard it can be. I hope you get a good, peaceful rest soon.

[zaecus.livejournal.com]

You do not sound like a nutter at all... especially compared to me.

*ponder* Sounds like there's a part of you that you still haven't deal with, yet. Also sounds like it's not overly dangerous unless you decide to start ignoring it.

[fragment00.livejournal.com]

I'm not a nutter, I deal with this stuff every couple of weekends a month.
best thing to do is not meditate for awhile and don't allow yourself to connect with the entity, I've seen the results when someone connects with any malevelant entity. luckily these things are most often confined to a area or worst case scenario it's atracted to an object.
I have other things that can be done to see if you do have a haunting, if you are a 'nutter', or just got in the path of something bad.

http://www.southlouisianaghosthunters.com
email: jlyons@southlouisianaghosthunters.com

[jenndolari.livejournal.com]

I don't see it as much of an entity type thing as much as it's a "Creature from the Id" kind of thing. I've just been under some serious strain lately, and it's that strain that's prolly putting me in this position.

[fragment00.livejournal.com]

Well you could try burning some white sage to help remove any negative energy.

[jenndolari.livejournal.com]

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