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This morning's dialogue line in my head:

"I don't understand it...but I accept it."

"Acceptance alone, in this case, isn't enough. I see fear behind those gorgeous green eyes of yours. Fear from not understanding, not knowing. And fear is a terrible way to start up a friendship."

After a day of letting the characters talk it over:

CARRIE
"I don't get it...but that's okay!
(proudly)
"I accept you with an open heart and mind."

HEIDI
"That's not enough. In this case, acceptance alone isn't enough. Behind those gorgeous green eyes of yours there's fear. Fear from not understanding. Not knowing.

"And I put it there. When we first met. And for that, again, I'm sorry. But if we're going to make this work, you have to not only accept, but understand, and know why I do what I do."

CARRIE
"But it's okay! It's just not my...thing! And anyways, you're different."

HEIDI
"I'm not one whit different than--
"I got it. Get your coat on, I need to show you something."

CARRIE
(jokingly, slyly
like she's in on an
inside joke)
"Is that an order?"

HEIDI
(deadly serious)
"No. But if this is going to work...then you need to come with me."

(no subject)

Guys guys guys. Enough of the Texas Secession stuff. It's just not gonna happen. All this publicity just makes them feel all important and righteous.

Besides it's beginning to harm my credibility as fake Ambassador of the Republic of Texas to Cascadia.

(no subject)

Darling you gotta let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
If you say that you are mine
I'll be here til the end of time
So you got to let know
Should I stay or should I go?

(no subject)

I really really really need to take up drinking.

(no subject)

I make really bad decisions. I mean REALLY bad decisions. To the point that I don't trust my own judgement anymore. Because of that, I try NOT to make decisions, and just let fate and circumstance take me where I go. It often leads to adventures, and if a decision goes bad, that failure isn't bogging me down.

There was a certain decision point I was happy I didn't have to make. Specifically, circumstances dictated that I HAD to pick Choice A over Choice B. That changed, and suddenly the choice was back in my own hands instead of fate.

I've wrestled with that choice for a while now, but I finally made that decision today. It was probably a bad decision, like they all usually are, but it's one that needed to made.