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Aug. 19th, 2013
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Aug. 19th, 2013 11:36 pmI like to joke that I make a lot of bad life decisions, but the awful truth of it is I really do.
Mainly the problem is my heart. Not the physical heart, but the motional one. It likes to scream and whine loudly 24 hours a day about stuff. "This isn't Texas" "This isn't Nintendo" "I love Emily" "Let's spend cash on something extravagant instead of underwear." My mind knows better that to chase a foolish errand...but that thing just don't shut up.
Ignoring it is hard, but can be done. After Emily, there was Pazi, but after Pazi, I've decided to be single. My heart has decided otherwise. I've actually fallen in love with a few people since Pazi, but have learned to ignore that feeling. It kinda hurts, but can be done. And has made my life a lot less complicated.
Not that I don't recommend following your heart. I just wish it'd give me a break every so often and just be happy about something already.
Mainly the problem is my heart. Not the physical heart, but the motional one. It likes to scream and whine loudly 24 hours a day about stuff. "This isn't Texas" "This isn't Nintendo" "I love Emily" "Let's spend cash on something extravagant instead of underwear." My mind knows better that to chase a foolish errand...but that thing just don't shut up.
Ignoring it is hard, but can be done. After Emily, there was Pazi, but after Pazi, I've decided to be single. My heart has decided otherwise. I've actually fallen in love with a few people since Pazi, but have learned to ignore that feeling. It kinda hurts, but can be done. And has made my life a lot less complicated.
Not that I don't recommend following your heart. I just wish it'd give me a break every so often and just be happy about something already.