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Thoughts Before Bed

So my two VCRs are ruined, with about 400+ VHS tapes to encode. Lots of stuff there from about 1985 to 2000. Stuff that was never released or is so local, it was only shown once or twice.

There's a part of me that says "Hold on to it, and try to buy some used VCRs to keep encoding." There's another part of me that says "Trash the tapes, you can't trust a used VCR that wasn't taken meticulous care of, and there's nothing on those tapes that precious to anyone else but you."

And since I'm prone to making bad decisions, I don't trust myself to make the right decision.

Sleep is good, though. Maybe pancakes in the morning.

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Had a dream that while I was on my trip back to Texas, I straight up decided to not go back, dropping everything and walking away from my job at Disney(?!) and happy to go back to my job at Wincor. I was even happy about getting an apartment on Rundberg Lane, close into town. I even had two tickets to Disneyland in my mailbox, which I gave to Crys and Lissa as a Thank You for putting up with me.

It's wierd how my brain translates things that make me happy. I felt very very happy to go back to Wincor, a job a despised and eventually left because it was actually giving me hives (it was that bad). It probably was confusing DNP (which I loved) and Wincor. Same with Rundberg. Rundberg Lane was pretty crime ridden and a place I didn't like going when I lived in Austin. It's probably confusing Hyde Park, where I would love to live again.

No idea about the Disney/Nintendo confusion.

I sometimes wonder if my brain just confuses "good" and "bad" on a subconscious level. It sent me to places I would hate being, but was happy to be there...confusing good places I loved with bad places I wanted to leave, or my issues with negapsi I have with energywork.