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Jun. 18th, 2021 02:59 am30 Questions For Pride Month, Day 17 (Take 2): Do you feel that transition has changed you, or merely allowed you to better express who you always were?
Yes and yes.
Easy part first...my transition, for the most part, has allowed me to better express who I always believed I was. That isn't to say my transition also hasn't changed me. It has. But only because I didn't know better when I was younger.
What I expected out of my transition was The Same Person I Was, Just In A Body That Matched The Brain. I learned that would not be the case because I didn't grow up with other girls, or have the life experiences they had as adults. I mean, I had good friends who were girls as a child (A Chinese girl whose name I think was Tsu-Li, Brandi, Ashley). But I wasn't part of that world.
Once I transitioned and began really socializing with them, it was such a different world, and my own femininity had a serious boyish accent that I had a lot of adapting to do both good and bad.
I was a very private person who lost the privacy of my previous gender. Women are very much on display under the watchful eye of the men around them, as well as other women and their family. But also, girl-friends are incredibly open and honest with each other and very few things taboo between them. Again, I was a sort of private person, and not used to being that open.
There are so many other things I had to adapt to. Some I'm still adapting to some twenty some years later.
But I am still expressing who I always was. I just had to fit in.
https://twitter.com/gwenners/status/1399574609536503810
Yes and yes.
Easy part first...my transition, for the most part, has allowed me to better express who I always believed I was. That isn't to say my transition also hasn't changed me. It has. But only because I didn't know better when I was younger.
What I expected out of my transition was The Same Person I Was, Just In A Body That Matched The Brain. I learned that would not be the case because I didn't grow up with other girls, or have the life experiences they had as adults. I mean, I had good friends who were girls as a child (A Chinese girl whose name I think was Tsu-Li, Brandi, Ashley). But I wasn't part of that world.
Once I transitioned and began really socializing with them, it was such a different world, and my own femininity had a serious boyish accent that I had a lot of adapting to do both good and bad.
I was a very private person who lost the privacy of my previous gender. Women are very much on display under the watchful eye of the men around them, as well as other women and their family. But also, girl-friends are incredibly open and honest with each other and very few things taboo between them. Again, I was a sort of private person, and not used to being that open.
There are so many other things I had to adapt to. Some I'm still adapting to some twenty some years later.
But I am still expressing who I always was. I just had to fit in.
https://twitter.com/gwenners/status/1399574609536503810
