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TUESDAY

I woke up early to go see Steph...she gave me a nice little Sailor Saturn wall scroll. Very cool, indeed. Kim, Steph and I went to Purple Cactus for the second part of my gift...I got a Doctor Who Monthly mag and an Animaerica mag about Robotech. Steph said I could have anything I wanted there (EVERYTHING in the store was 50% off), but nothing really appealed to me. When we got back, the girls gave me the sketches I'd made of tham as Faith, Hope and Charity. They want them inked and colored...you know, I have no idea where my crayons are, or even my map pencils...I haven't done a hand coloring job in a LONG time....

I got some Seafood from www.verybestfish.com (AKA Barnacle Bill's), had dinner, then went to my Uncle's in Nockenut, TX.

First resolution of 2003 - Do not drive Wilson County bacjk roads unless (1) It is daytime and (2) it hasn't rained for two years beforehand. I crossed so many low water crossings that I got over confident. One water crossing I couldn't see the road through, and drove through the "edge" of the still water. No problem, went through like a charm. Then I came across another creek. I saw a truck drive through it on my way there, so I made for it myself. I couldn't see the other side of the "pond." I backed up, and floored it...I made it halfway through the puddle before I began to slow down, and sudenly realized water was a LOT deeper than I thought. I shifted into first gear and gunned it, hoping as long as I had momentum I could get SOME traction. I BARELY made it to the other side. We're not doing that again.

(But Jenn, why didn't you just go around? It would have added 10 miles to the trip in the wrong direction, and I was just downt he street from my Uncle's. Plus, I'm not exactly...well...smart.)

There wasn't much to the party there...just a bunch of relatived sitting around watching some movie about Mexican Unionworkers...it eventually turned into this big metaphysical thingy, which was nice, but as soon as they realized they were talking of freaky things, it would go back to sports/ranching. Testosterone is a poison. Did I mention my mother thinks I'm diabetic now?

Midnight rolled around, I put my map back into my truck, and while out there...well...I wished for a better 2003. I had thought about cursing it...but you know...well. Comparing 2002 to 2001 is like saying "Well, at least it stinks like rotting cheese, instead of a pile of shit." But it WAS better. Not NEARLY as traumatic...and the lows weren't as low...and there WERE highs here and there.

So we made for a good 2003.

It got off to a VERY bad start though:

I knew I was going direct to Austin from Nockernut. The last few days I had had only five hours of sleep per day...I was VERY VERY VERY tired, and wanted a good good sleep. I offered to go directly home to Austin that night - no problems with that...I know there are drunks out there...I also know how to get to Austin quick, and off the highways away from the drunks.

My Dad told me to stay. My Uncle told me to stay. I told them both I planned to get up at Noon...I'd get a good 8 hours of sleep,a nd take off. They both agreed it would be better for me to stay late than go directly home. So I stayed and listened to Art Bell's final show...stayed on the net until 4AM...and went to bed expecting a nice eight hour sleep.

INTERMISSION

My review of 2001 was simply: "I hope you die and get eat by worms." This year...well...The 2002 Year in Review
Wow...that could have gone better.

WEDNESDAY

8:30 AM there's a nock on my door. It's my dad telling me to get up NOW. I told him I was staying till noon. he told me to get up now, so I wouldn't be a burden and wouldn't embarass the family. It seems my family has gotten over the fear of me being an embarassment to the rest of the family...but only when they're around. He hounded me to get up until I did. I am STILL mad at him over that. If I had left for Austin that night I would have to worry about drunks on the road. Now the world had to worry about ME on the road. I didn't speak to him at all the rest of my time there, which was mercifully short.

I DID break my first resolution by half, and went on a county road to cut corners to the nearest highway...no water puddles to worry about there. The next few hours were a hazed blur...I knew my Uncle gave me two Cokes to take ont he way...I don't remember drinking them, but they were empty when I got there. I bought some tacos on the way...it was an 80 mile drive through country I'd never driven before...but...I couldn't remember any of it...I got in about 11AM.

I was dazed, confused....and out of it for the rest of the day...I worked on the new Dolari.Org redesign when I wasn't fighting sleep....

THURSDAY, FRIDAY

I did nothing but eat and work on dolari.org. Ever FELT yourself gain weight? I have: I worked on Dolari.Org nonestop for 16 hours over two days. 32 hours. I posted it up that night, only to find....

SATURDAY

All the links on Dolari.Org were pointing to files on my hard drive instead of local web server files. I HATE FRONTPAGE. I really do. It CONSTANTLY thinks the world has your same hard drive. I spent most of the evening fixing EVERY DAMNED LINK on the site, and reposting it. You can see the new Dolari.Org, including new Click-O-Rama here:

WWW.DOLARI.ORG

Then something very bad happened: I had dinner, sat down to watch a movie at 8PM...and woke up at 2AM, feeling like I was digesting rocks again. What the fuck? I'm having SERIOUS problems with sleep and passing out after I eat now...I'm beginning to think Mom is right.

BTW, what woke me up? The sofa falling on me. I managed to somehow sleep on the VERY edge of the sofa, and got the center of gravity to shift and get the sofa to tilt and fall on me, without me ever really falling off the sofa. I think I deserve a physics award for that.

So right now, I'm hoping I can go to sleep soon...I need to be up at Noon or 1PM to get my sleep schedule back on track, or I'll be passing out left and right. I'm actually a little sleepy right now.

I think I'm going to try and fast all day...clean my system out and try to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me.