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dolariThings are looking up....
Dr, D.D. Basse
JENNIFER DOLARI
ESTRADIOL 2MG TABS
TAKE 2 TABLET(S) DAILY
No refills remain.
I'm sitting here, staring at the orangy vial of pills pills pills. It's really only one vial of four I should be taking, but this one is the most important to me. It's a blood thinner, yes, but it has other properties that I need as well. It fixes an endocrine problem that I've had since puberty. To tell you the truth, it's more the other way around. I started taking these pills to fix the endocrine problem...the fact that it's good for my heart just happened to be something else I needed.
Since I started taking these pills, my outlook on life has seriously brightened. I'd gone from suicidal to insanely happy. From violent to calm. It helps me FEEL again. Since losing my job and not being able to get one back, that feeling had taken a punch to the gut. When I ran out of money for my pills, it only took two weeks before I noticed those suicidal tendencies creeping back into my life...the violence from before.
When I started taking these pills September 1st, 2000, I never realized how much they've become the focal point of my life, and how unstabel I had become. I need them to the point of addiction...and frankly, it is an addicition...I cannot function normally as a human female without them. 99% of the reason I started taking them in the first place.
I've got these pills now. Haven't taken them yet...I'll take two before bed and wake up with the chemicals in my system. It'll probably take another two or three weeks to undo the damage my lack of having these things did to me. But looking back on the last few weeks, it seems I got them just in time.
Faith manages.
Now to find money to go see the doctor, let him know why I haven't been to see him in over half a year and get started on the other three meds I need lest my heart decide one day to simply stop beating.
Quick Sum up of the last couple of days events. Simply because I was so down, I skipped them
SATURDAY - BarBeCued Chicken, Grilled Sausage, Hamburger A La Dad, Pork Ribs, Mashed Potato A La Mom, Salad A La Jenn. I think everyone really pitched in and made me feel a mile better. My mom may be a bitch somedays, but she's not completely unfeeling.
SUNDAY - Down, dead, dying, wishing the world would stop for a second so I could fling myself into the recesses of space. "The Plan" died in its tracks. Things got very scary for a time.
MONDAY - Tired, bored, sad. Drew up and completeled Day 4 AWFW. One panel remains for Day 5. I really gotta get moving on this thing if I want to have backup strips. I went to the pharmacy to drop off y prescription.
TUESDAY - Picked up pills. I WIN.
I will take two, and call you in the morning.
They taste like grape.
Dr, D.D. Basse
JENNIFER DOLARI
ESTRADIOL 2MG TABS
TAKE 2 TABLET(S) DAILY
No refills remain.
I'm sitting here, staring at the orangy vial of pills pills pills. It's really only one vial of four I should be taking, but this one is the most important to me. It's a blood thinner, yes, but it has other properties that I need as well. It fixes an endocrine problem that I've had since puberty. To tell you the truth, it's more the other way around. I started taking these pills to fix the endocrine problem...the fact that it's good for my heart just happened to be something else I needed.
Since I started taking these pills, my outlook on life has seriously brightened. I'd gone from suicidal to insanely happy. From violent to calm. It helps me FEEL again. Since losing my job and not being able to get one back, that feeling had taken a punch to the gut. When I ran out of money for my pills, it only took two weeks before I noticed those suicidal tendencies creeping back into my life...the violence from before.
When I started taking these pills September 1st, 2000, I never realized how much they've become the focal point of my life, and how unstabel I had become. I need them to the point of addiction...and frankly, it is an addicition...I cannot function normally as a human female without them. 99% of the reason I started taking them in the first place.
I've got these pills now. Haven't taken them yet...I'll take two before bed and wake up with the chemicals in my system. It'll probably take another two or three weeks to undo the damage my lack of having these things did to me. But looking back on the last few weeks, it seems I got them just in time.
Faith manages.
Now to find money to go see the doctor, let him know why I haven't been to see him in over half a year and get started on the other three meds I need lest my heart decide one day to simply stop beating.
Quick Sum up of the last couple of days events. Simply because I was so down, I skipped them
SATURDAY - BarBeCued Chicken, Grilled Sausage, Hamburger A La Dad, Pork Ribs, Mashed Potato A La Mom, Salad A La Jenn. I think everyone really pitched in and made me feel a mile better. My mom may be a bitch somedays, but she's not completely unfeeling.
SUNDAY - Down, dead, dying, wishing the world would stop for a second so I could fling myself into the recesses of space. "The Plan" died in its tracks. Things got very scary for a time.
MONDAY - Tired, bored, sad. Drew up and completeled Day 4 AWFW. One panel remains for Day 5. I really gotta get moving on this thing if I want to have backup strips. I went to the pharmacy to drop off y prescription.
TUESDAY - Picked up pills. I WIN.
I will take two, and call you in the morning.
They taste like grape.
