Vampire City!
Oct. 30th, 2003 03:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dolariEver looked at a set a steps...took that first step down...felt the wood creak out from under you...and then think to yourself on that split second "This ain't good" before stumbling down to the bottom?
That was today. :P
I wsa just way out of sorts from the opening bell. I was just in one of my moods all day. Problem is, when I'm in them, I don't see them till it's too late and the damage is done. Shoulda known something was up when Dean came in, and I was mad at him for simply having a job. In typical fashion, I did'nt say anything and ut on a happy face, but when he got another job interview JUST AS HE GOT HOME FROM WORK, the first punch hit me.
I have more experience than he does, I've got better credentials than he does, I use the same cover letters that he does and my resume is spic and span...and he gets all the calls. I'm incredibly angry about that.
I had also been thinking about the 2nd Anniversary Gallery which is supposed to be going up this Sunday. I sent out a spate of Emails to people who said they'd do some art for it who haven't gotten back to me, and found that none of them were ready (myself included). Well, one remembered after I EMailed and offered to do some quick art for it...but by that time, I'd cancelled the Gallery due to lack of interest.
Then I got an IM from someone who told me I was cute. PLEASE DO NOT SAY THIS TO ME EVER. I am not cute, I am not pretty, I am not lovely, I am not good looking in the least. I know I'm ugly, and any pictures that are posted are heavily photoshopped to remove uglyness from them. Telling me I'm cute is like acknowledging the fact that the photoshopping worked. Telling me I'm lovely or pretty or anything like that just drives it home that I'm not. So please don't do it. And PLEASE do not argue with me. Comments on this subject will be deleted on site.
Those three things just kicked my ass to the ground, and I haven't really tried picking myself up. Keep a low profile, don't try anything ambitious, and the day will end without noticing you're getting back up and kicking you back down.
The day wore on and on. I finished up most of my responsibilities for the Dimensionality project by now. Two sprites and a background. Gotta make some avatars before tomorrow to completely dispatch them. Then I can finally focus on my comics fulltime.
Speaking of which, the new website design should be up by Sunday, I'm hoping. If not, I'll just push back the anniversary a week and put it up then . You can see the new design at http://awishforwings.keenspace.com/0001X.html .
The next episode of Closetspace is done now, although it was pretty easy (it's just a title card for The Big Show).
Hopefully the day will end quickly, quietly and without much more heaviness
That was today. :P
I wsa just way out of sorts from the opening bell. I was just in one of my moods all day. Problem is, when I'm in them, I don't see them till it's too late and the damage is done. Shoulda known something was up when Dean came in, and I was mad at him for simply having a job. In typical fashion, I did'nt say anything and ut on a happy face, but when he got another job interview JUST AS HE GOT HOME FROM WORK, the first punch hit me.
I have more experience than he does, I've got better credentials than he does, I use the same cover letters that he does and my resume is spic and span...and he gets all the calls. I'm incredibly angry about that.
I had also been thinking about the 2nd Anniversary Gallery which is supposed to be going up this Sunday. I sent out a spate of Emails to people who said they'd do some art for it who haven't gotten back to me, and found that none of them were ready (myself included). Well, one remembered after I EMailed and offered to do some quick art for it...but by that time, I'd cancelled the Gallery due to lack of interest.
Then I got an IM from someone who told me I was cute. PLEASE DO NOT SAY THIS TO ME EVER. I am not cute, I am not pretty, I am not lovely, I am not good looking in the least. I know I'm ugly, and any pictures that are posted are heavily photoshopped to remove uglyness from them. Telling me I'm cute is like acknowledging the fact that the photoshopping worked. Telling me I'm lovely or pretty or anything like that just drives it home that I'm not. So please don't do it. And PLEASE do not argue with me. Comments on this subject will be deleted on site.
Those three things just kicked my ass to the ground, and I haven't really tried picking myself up. Keep a low profile, don't try anything ambitious, and the day will end without noticing you're getting back up and kicking you back down.
The day wore on and on. I finished up most of my responsibilities for the Dimensionality project by now. Two sprites and a background. Gotta make some avatars before tomorrow to completely dispatch them. Then I can finally focus on my comics fulltime.
Speaking of which, the new website design should be up by Sunday, I'm hoping. If not, I'll just push back the anniversary a week and put it up then . You can see the new design at http://awishforwings.keenspace.com/0001X.html .
The next episode of Closetspace is done now, although it was pretty easy (it's just a title card for The Big Show).
Hopefully the day will end quickly, quietly and without much more heaviness
