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dolariSomething baout this job isn't sitting well with me. Just something I haven't felt since high school. It's kind of a feeling of dread, and I SERIOUSLY have to keep staring at $14.25 an hour to keep motivated on this.
I thought maybe it was the thought of losing my days/nights or maybe a fear of not being able to do my comics with the 8 hour workload...but that's not it. I thought maybe it was just pre-job-jitters, but I never felt this way with Dell, Harte-Hanks or TxDOT.
I thought maybe it was the fear of being told "Stop using the women's room or you're fired." I haven't ruled that out, but I never felt that way at TxDOT. Maybe I should have. I dunno.
I think it has a LOT to do with the interview and how it was handled. Sure, the TG thing came up and it was handwaved away. What scared me was the managerial questions they asked me (What managerial experience do you have? Have you managed anyone but yourself?) and the Unix questions they asked. When he asked if I had Unix experiene, his eyes lit up, and start asking me some REALLY softball questions (what port does Telnet connect to? What's the command to list a directory). When the questions came up that I didn't know (What's the difference between TCP and UDP? How do you determine a mac address on an IP number?) he up and GAVE me the answers, then marked I got them correctly.
Maybe I'm just making excuses for feeling wierd. I just don't know. I do know that I feel very very very uneasy, moreso than I have since high school. It just doesn't "Feel" right.
Dean did NOT help by telling me some temp agencies CHARGE the future employee for work, and got that in my head over the paperwork signing tomorrow. Talk about your boneheaded maneuvers. Not cool throwing that in on top of everything else.
I go sign paperwork tomorrow. Maybe I'll have it all straightened out by then. I need to be up in 6 hours...
I thought maybe it was the thought of losing my days/nights or maybe a fear of not being able to do my comics with the 8 hour workload...but that's not it. I thought maybe it was just pre-job-jitters, but I never felt this way with Dell, Harte-Hanks or TxDOT.
I thought maybe it was the fear of being told "Stop using the women's room or you're fired." I haven't ruled that out, but I never felt that way at TxDOT. Maybe I should have. I dunno.
I think it has a LOT to do with the interview and how it was handled. Sure, the TG thing came up and it was handwaved away. What scared me was the managerial questions they asked me (What managerial experience do you have? Have you managed anyone but yourself?) and the Unix questions they asked. When he asked if I had Unix experiene, his eyes lit up, and start asking me some REALLY softball questions (what port does Telnet connect to? What's the command to list a directory). When the questions came up that I didn't know (What's the difference between TCP and UDP? How do you determine a mac address on an IP number?) he up and GAVE me the answers, then marked I got them correctly.
Maybe I'm just making excuses for feeling wierd. I just don't know. I do know that I feel very very very uneasy, moreso than I have since high school. It just doesn't "Feel" right.
Dean did NOT help by telling me some temp agencies CHARGE the future employee for work, and got that in my head over the paperwork signing tomorrow. Talk about your boneheaded maneuvers. Not cool throwing that in on top of everything else.
I go sign paperwork tomorrow. Maybe I'll have it all straightened out by then. I need to be up in 6 hours...
