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dolariWhat am I? I'm not all that sure anymore.
I am an M2F transsexual. That much is certain. I have boobs, and am rather proud of them. I have a female name that is more me than any other. To all my friends, I'm she and her and come across as female, even if thepublic in general doesn't do me any favors.
I am a comic artist. I'm no longer known as the Computer Geek or That Brainy Kid, labels that WERE me, even though I hated them. People see me as the comic artist I always wanted to be. People are reading and enjoying my comics and allowing my characters to live in their heads. And that to me is a wonderful feeling.
I am a leader now. In the Emily/Jenn relationship, I now have the role of the guider, instead of the guided, as it was with the Dean/Jenn relationship. I'm more confident now than I ever was just three years ago. I'm noticing people are looking to me for advice, instead of me looking to others for advice. I am directed instead of wildly flailing. I guess I'm growing up, despite all my attempts to never let go of my childhood.
This started as solemn kinda of counting my flaws and my praises, and I'm suddenly surprised at how many praises there really are, and how I've grown since 2001 when my world came crashing down.
I am me. Not a male mask, not a female mask. And...I think I'm content. I've come to terms with who I am, even if I haven't with what I am. Did I just go from Maiden to Mother?
I am an M2F transsexual. That much is certain. I have boobs, and am rather proud of them. I have a female name that is more me than any other. To all my friends, I'm she and her and come across as female, even if thepublic in general doesn't do me any favors.
I am a comic artist. I'm no longer known as the Computer Geek or That Brainy Kid, labels that WERE me, even though I hated them. People see me as the comic artist I always wanted to be. People are reading and enjoying my comics and allowing my characters to live in their heads. And that to me is a wonderful feeling.
I am a leader now. In the Emily/Jenn relationship, I now have the role of the guider, instead of the guided, as it was with the Dean/Jenn relationship. I'm more confident now than I ever was just three years ago. I'm noticing people are looking to me for advice, instead of me looking to others for advice. I am directed instead of wildly flailing. I guess I'm growing up, despite all my attempts to never let go of my childhood.
This started as solemn kinda of counting my flaws and my praises, and I'm suddenly surprised at how many praises there really are, and how I've grown since 2001 when my world came crashing down.
I am me. Not a male mask, not a female mask. And...I think I'm content. I've come to terms with who I am, even if I haven't with what I am. Did I just go from Maiden to Mother?
