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Mar. 17th, 2006 11:58 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dolariI should have been asleep three hours ago. I don't have insomnia, I have a body whose warranty expired on March 10th. On March 10th was when I woke up and couldn't feel my hand, and couldn't walk on my left foot.
For a while, my heel was fine, minus the fact that the skin on my heel was slightly numb. But in the last few days, everytime I go to sleep, a pain forms inside my heel and wakes me up. Today has been especially bad.
Today, every time I lie down, a pain starts up "inside" my heel, and it suddenly gets incredibly hot and burning. If I sit up and put my legs "Down" the pain dissappears. And now I' just incredibly depressed, because I'm tired, I can't sleep, my heel is hurting, my hand is hurting, and there'w just nothng left to do. My body is in full scale rebellion, and there's nothing left to do. I want to go to a doctor, I have $500. But that is NOTHING in healthcare. That's a doctor's visit and a few meds. And what if there IS something seriously wrong?
I hate the fact that every entry in the last week has been about something wrong with my body, but, my god, every since March the 10th, it's just come apart at the seams. I Wan to know what's wrong with me. I wish it wouldn't bankrupt me to find out.
I need to take up drinking.
For a while, my heel was fine, minus the fact that the skin on my heel was slightly numb. But in the last few days, everytime I go to sleep, a pain forms inside my heel and wakes me up. Today has been especially bad.
Today, every time I lie down, a pain starts up "inside" my heel, and it suddenly gets incredibly hot and burning. If I sit up and put my legs "Down" the pain dissappears. And now I' just incredibly depressed, because I'm tired, I can't sleep, my heel is hurting, my hand is hurting, and there'w just nothng left to do. My body is in full scale rebellion, and there's nothing left to do. I want to go to a doctor, I have $500. But that is NOTHING in healthcare. That's a doctor's visit and a few meds. And what if there IS something seriously wrong?
I hate the fact that every entry in the last week has been about something wrong with my body, but, my god, every since March the 10th, it's just come apart at the seams. I Wan to know what's wrong with me. I wish it wouldn't bankrupt me to find out.
I need to take up drinking.
