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dolariOh, man...it's 6AM right now...I'm usually going to bed at 6AM, not waking up..but something wierd is going on with me today.
Today was a day that I just counted the minutes till it ended. I was really depressed, morose and homesick for Pennsylvania of all things. I think it's because Deener went back to visit with her new girlfriend. I really want to go back. Go back and be happy. I want to go back to 1999, and relive that year.
As it was all I really did today was watch movies, which is a great escape. I saw Batman & Robin (That travesty which took my wonderful Poison Ivy Eco-witch and turned her into a southern vamp), The Beverly Hillbillies and the last episode of MASH.
Maybe it was the underrunning theme of the movies that made me depressed about my lovelife as well. Batman & Robin had the love sphermones from Ivy, Jed Clampett was getting married and even Klinger and Sun Li got married. Hell, I can pull all sorts of themes in thsoe movies that made me the way I am today. Robin felt alone in a team. Jed was living away from his home. In MASH everyone was going home.
I was feeling low and down and lonely. I decided a quick drive in the country might lift my spirits, but it didn't. I drove from San Antonio to Boerne to Pipe Creek...about 50 miles. IT's the longest I've driven since I came to San Antonio...but it was no use...I was crying the whole time. I gave considerable thoght to launching my truck over the overpass into freeway traffic a few times, my mood was so foul.
I came home about Midnight...clung to TV until about 2AM in that Pink from Pink Floyd kinda way. Desperately seeking some escape...and I got it: I fell asleep And had a terrible dream brought on by going to bed watching CNN.
I plan to go back to bed in a bit.Maybe tomorrow will go a bit better.
Any suggestions for what to do on a Sunday with no money and no transportation?
Today was a day that I just counted the minutes till it ended. I was really depressed, morose and homesick for Pennsylvania of all things. I think it's because Deener went back to visit with her new girlfriend. I really want to go back. Go back and be happy. I want to go back to 1999, and relive that year.
As it was all I really did today was watch movies, which is a great escape. I saw Batman & Robin (That travesty which took my wonderful Poison Ivy Eco-witch and turned her into a southern vamp), The Beverly Hillbillies and the last episode of MASH.
Maybe it was the underrunning theme of the movies that made me depressed about my lovelife as well. Batman & Robin had the love sphermones from Ivy, Jed Clampett was getting married and even Klinger and Sun Li got married. Hell, I can pull all sorts of themes in thsoe movies that made me the way I am today. Robin felt alone in a team. Jed was living away from his home. In MASH everyone was going home.
I was feeling low and down and lonely. I decided a quick drive in the country might lift my spirits, but it didn't. I drove from San Antonio to Boerne to Pipe Creek...about 50 miles. IT's the longest I've driven since I came to San Antonio...but it was no use...I was crying the whole time. I gave considerable thoght to launching my truck over the overpass into freeway traffic a few times, my mood was so foul.
I came home about Midnight...clung to TV until about 2AM in that Pink from Pink Floyd kinda way. Desperately seeking some escape...and I got it: I fell asleep And had a terrible dream brought on by going to bed watching CNN.
I plan to go back to bed in a bit.Maybe tomorrow will go a bit better.
Any suggestions for what to do on a Sunday with no money and no transportation?
