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dolariSeattle was never meant to be home. It was always a stepping stone to Vancouver.
Emily and I had been long distance (and short distance) dating since 2005. when we decided to move closer, we sat and tried to figure out the best way to et closer together. We brought her down to Texas for months at a clip, and we felt incredibly compatible together. I think there may have even been a year where she spent almost six months with me. When we decided to get even closer, we realized that even brniging her to Texas for months at a time would not be enough.
After figuring what we wanted out of the long terms we decided it would actually be easier for me to get Canadian citizenship than for her to get American citizenship. But spending just a few months of the year at a time was not enough to make sure we were compatble enough to make this huge change.
In 2008, I moved to Seattle. This was always meant to be a temporary move, on my way to moving to Vancouver. From Seattle, I could isit Emily often, work on acclimating to the Canadian culture, work on my citizenship, and eventually, estimated at a year, I would move up to Canada.
Things didn't work out quite that way.
While I always knew that Seattle's cost of living was incredibly expensive, and prepared for that, I wasn't prepared for how expensive. The job I got was not very fulfilling, and did not pay as well as I'd hoped - I was spending more money than I was making every month and my credit card debts skyrocketed. Knowing things were going badly, and an emergency move back to Texas might be in the future, I popped the question early. She said Yes.
And then I the job went away, and, in the middle of the Great Depression of 2008, I couldn't get a job to save my life. I lost the apartment a few months later, moving in with friends in need of a roomate. Thanks to a donation, a move in late 2009 was now possible, but Emily asked that I stay. And I did.
In late 2009, I got the job with Nintendo. And living with friends I was able to stop the money hemmorage, and start working on my bills. I moved up to Seattle with $5000 in available funds. I was now $7000 in debt. But I was able to make headway.
Then I got sick with diabetes, and I began paying more in medication than everything else combined. And so ended my plans for Canada. Now, with a chronic disease, I was ineligble for citizenship in Canada. Meaning that Vancouver, which had always felt like home, was now off limits to anything more than a long visit. Which was sort-of-okay, as the relationship between Emily and myself had gone sour - and ended up with us breaking off the engagement, and eventually, any real contact whatsoever.
But in the end, Nintendo became a dream given form. When the lease on the previous house came up, we had planned to go our seperate ways. But the promise of turning a temp job with Nintendo into a career was worth staying in Washington for, especially as it seemed, at the time, I would be a shoe-in. I signed up for a two year lease on a house jsut down the street. That was 2010.
It's now 2013. The lease is coming up, and we're all going our seperate ways. This time for real. I'm still a temp at Nintendo, and it's looking increasingly unlikely a career here will be possible. Worse: With the roomates leaving, and actually knowing the cost of living here (instead of guessing at it), I cannot stay in Washington once the lease is up at the end of March.
As much as I've made great friends here in Seattle...it was never meant to be home, and never became home. The Great Depression of 2008 is still going on, but as long as I can find some sort of job, the much reduced cost of living in Texas should make it livable. I've missed home. I've missed it a lot. It'll be good to go back.
Emily and I had been long distance (and short distance) dating since 2005. when we decided to move closer, we sat and tried to figure out the best way to et closer together. We brought her down to Texas for months at a clip, and we felt incredibly compatible together. I think there may have even been a year where she spent almost six months with me. When we decided to get even closer, we realized that even brniging her to Texas for months at a time would not be enough.
After figuring what we wanted out of the long terms we decided it would actually be easier for me to get Canadian citizenship than for her to get American citizenship. But spending just a few months of the year at a time was not enough to make sure we were compatble enough to make this huge change.
In 2008, I moved to Seattle. This was always meant to be a temporary move, on my way to moving to Vancouver. From Seattle, I could isit Emily often, work on acclimating to the Canadian culture, work on my citizenship, and eventually, estimated at a year, I would move up to Canada.
Things didn't work out quite that way.
While I always knew that Seattle's cost of living was incredibly expensive, and prepared for that, I wasn't prepared for how expensive. The job I got was not very fulfilling, and did not pay as well as I'd hoped - I was spending more money than I was making every month and my credit card debts skyrocketed. Knowing things were going badly, and an emergency move back to Texas might be in the future, I popped the question early. She said Yes.
And then I the job went away, and, in the middle of the Great Depression of 2008, I couldn't get a job to save my life. I lost the apartment a few months later, moving in with friends in need of a roomate. Thanks to a donation, a move in late 2009 was now possible, but Emily asked that I stay. And I did.
In late 2009, I got the job with Nintendo. And living with friends I was able to stop the money hemmorage, and start working on my bills. I moved up to Seattle with $5000 in available funds. I was now $7000 in debt. But I was able to make headway.
Then I got sick with diabetes, and I began paying more in medication than everything else combined. And so ended my plans for Canada. Now, with a chronic disease, I was ineligble for citizenship in Canada. Meaning that Vancouver, which had always felt like home, was now off limits to anything more than a long visit. Which was sort-of-okay, as the relationship between Emily and myself had gone sour - and ended up with us breaking off the engagement, and eventually, any real contact whatsoever.
But in the end, Nintendo became a dream given form. When the lease on the previous house came up, we had planned to go our seperate ways. But the promise of turning a temp job with Nintendo into a career was worth staying in Washington for, especially as it seemed, at the time, I would be a shoe-in. I signed up for a two year lease on a house jsut down the street. That was 2010.
It's now 2013. The lease is coming up, and we're all going our seperate ways. This time for real. I'm still a temp at Nintendo, and it's looking increasingly unlikely a career here will be possible. Worse: With the roomates leaving, and actually knowing the cost of living here (instead of guessing at it), I cannot stay in Washington once the lease is up at the end of March.
As much as I've made great friends here in Seattle...it was never meant to be home, and never became home. The Great Depression of 2008 is still going on, but as long as I can find some sort of job, the much reduced cost of living in Texas should make it livable. I've missed home. I've missed it a lot. It'll be good to go back.
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Date: 2013-01-06 08:16 pm (UTC)If you decide to return to Texas, I want to see you before I go. ♥ Sending good vibes to you regardless of what happens.
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