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Jun. 29th, 2016 11:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dolariSix months in: The state of the Second Job -or- Whatever happened to that great update schedule, Jenn?
Right up front - I don't consider that new years resolution broken. The Second Job is still going, it's still bringing in income (although barely, and that's all on me), but...darn it...the Many Lives of Genevieve is getting in the way, as are all the anti-trans news going on.
First up: The Many Lives of Genevieve took over my creative muse for a while there, and I'm a believer in striking while the iron is hot. I purposely decided to forgo drawing, and take no income, while I wrote as much as I could in it. It was almost a month straight of work until the muse decided "Goddamn, I need a rest."
Secondly: Once the book finally calmed down, all the anti-trans sentiments around the country really took off. My creative energy depends on my mood being good, and for the last few months, it's been pretty piss-poor, leading to not just a drop in artistic output, but a drop in my health in general. (Blood sugars up, blood pressure, cholestoerol, weight...I'm a mess)
Thirdly: A lot of my "I gotta do it anyways" reasons are gone. For whatever reason, Geek Girl Con turned down Liz and Crystal's applications for an artists table, meaning my table was gone, too. So I no longer have a need to have stuff to make for it. No need means "I don't need to draw when I feel bad" dropping my output even more.
BUT. I'm not out for the count yet. I'm still drawing when I'm able, still doing free livestreams for the three people who show up, still pulling cash out of Patreon (bless you, Patreon, you are a godsend). But I am still DOING. That's what's important.
Right up front - I don't consider that new years resolution broken. The Second Job is still going, it's still bringing in income (although barely, and that's all on me), but...darn it...the Many Lives of Genevieve is getting in the way, as are all the anti-trans news going on.
First up: The Many Lives of Genevieve took over my creative muse for a while there, and I'm a believer in striking while the iron is hot. I purposely decided to forgo drawing, and take no income, while I wrote as much as I could in it. It was almost a month straight of work until the muse decided "Goddamn, I need a rest."
Secondly: Once the book finally calmed down, all the anti-trans sentiments around the country really took off. My creative energy depends on my mood being good, and for the last few months, it's been pretty piss-poor, leading to not just a drop in artistic output, but a drop in my health in general. (Blood sugars up, blood pressure, cholestoerol, weight...I'm a mess)
Thirdly: A lot of my "I gotta do it anyways" reasons are gone. For whatever reason, Geek Girl Con turned down Liz and Crystal's applications for an artists table, meaning my table was gone, too. So I no longer have a need to have stuff to make for it. No need means "I don't need to draw when I feel bad" dropping my output even more.
BUT. I'm not out for the count yet. I'm still drawing when I'm able, still doing free livestreams for the three people who show up, still pulling cash out of Patreon (bless you, Patreon, you are a godsend). But I am still DOING. That's what's important.
