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Dec. 16th, 2016 09:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dolariFinally sitting down to watch Boy Meets Girl Series 2. Still a very good series.
I hate to admit this, but I couldn't bring myself to watch Series 2. Not because the show was bad. Not at all. I think it's still an excellent series.
I was part of the contest that got Boy Meets Girl made. I got pretty far up the ladder on that contest, not the final round, but definitely the second to last round. I don't even know how I rank beyond a generic "at worst 80th out of 320."
I lost of course. But I became a cheerleader for the show. I saw the heart behind the creation of the show, the reasons it was how it was, and the integrity going into the show. It simply is, the one trans show where trans people were involved, both behind and in front of the camera.
It premiered, I wrote a good review, I was the first, and I think I'm still the only, poster on the Boy Meets Girl forum. And then I stopped. I watched the rest. I liked the show. It's really good. I just couldn't bring myself to celebrate it.
The worst of my many flaws is envy. It's been the one thing that has destroyed friendships, wiped out my accomplishments, and led me to resent people who have done me no more wrong than "They got what I wanted."
It happened here. My envy got the best of me. I wanted to make that TV show. I wanted it probably longer than the creators of Boy Meets Girl have been alive. I wanted to see Rebecca Root as Victoria. Maybe even Nikki.
I couldn't bring myself to watch Series 2 until it was cancelled. My envy would not let me.
It's still good. I'm sad to see it's gone.
I hate to admit this, but I couldn't bring myself to watch Series 2. Not because the show was bad. Not at all. I think it's still an excellent series.
I was part of the contest that got Boy Meets Girl made. I got pretty far up the ladder on that contest, not the final round, but definitely the second to last round. I don't even know how I rank beyond a generic "at worst 80th out of 320."
I lost of course. But I became a cheerleader for the show. I saw the heart behind the creation of the show, the reasons it was how it was, and the integrity going into the show. It simply is, the one trans show where trans people were involved, both behind and in front of the camera.
It premiered, I wrote a good review, I was the first, and I think I'm still the only, poster on the Boy Meets Girl forum. And then I stopped. I watched the rest. I liked the show. It's really good. I just couldn't bring myself to celebrate it.
The worst of my many flaws is envy. It's been the one thing that has destroyed friendships, wiped out my accomplishments, and led me to resent people who have done me no more wrong than "They got what I wanted."
It happened here. My envy got the best of me. I wanted to make that TV show. I wanted it probably longer than the creators of Boy Meets Girl have been alive. I wanted to see Rebecca Root as Victoria. Maybe even Nikki.
I couldn't bring myself to watch Series 2 until it was cancelled. My envy would not let me.
It's still good. I'm sad to see it's gone.
