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[dolari]

Finally sitting down to watch Boy Meets Girl Series 2. Still a very good series.

I hate to admit this, but I couldn't bring myself to watch Series 2. Not because the show was bad. Not at all. I think it's still an excellent series.

I was part of the contest that got Boy Meets Girl made. I got pretty far up the ladder on that contest, not the final round, but definitely the second to last round. I don't even know how I rank beyond a generic "at worst 80th out of 320."

I lost of course. But I became a cheerleader for the show. I saw the heart behind the creation of the show, the reasons it was how it was, and the integrity going into the show. It simply is, the one trans show where trans people were involved, both behind and in front of the camera.

It premiered, I wrote a good review, I was the first, and I think I'm still the only, poster on the Boy Meets Girl forum. And then I stopped. I watched the rest. I liked the show. It's really good. I just couldn't bring myself to celebrate it.

The worst of my many flaws is envy. It's been the one thing that has destroyed friendships, wiped out my accomplishments, and led me to resent people who have done me no more wrong than "They got what I wanted."

It happened here. My envy got the best of me. I wanted to make that TV show. I wanted it probably longer than the creators of Boy Meets Girl have been alive. I wanted to see Rebecca Root as Victoria. Maybe even Nikki.

I couldn't bring myself to watch Series 2 until it was cancelled. My envy would not let me.

It's still good. I'm sad to see it's gone.

Comments

[porsupah.livejournal.com]

If you can recognise that in yourself, it's possible to consciously defeat it. Maybe not on an instinctual level - I don't know if such traits can ever really be wiped out, but maybe they can be muted to some degree. All part of this strange journey.. =:/

I know Transparent's well regarded (again, not one I've actually watched yet - it's sitting on one of the LAN drives), but I've never quite been able to feel comfortable with having a cismale playing a transwoman. Not that a good actor can't pull it off, but when there certainly are trans actors, surely one of them could have been given the role?

Definitely a real pity BMG didn't receive a third season. Still, kudos to the BBC for running the contest in the first place, and even giving it a second season. Maybe I'll actually get to watch the first episode today, now I'm feeling much less "on the outside looking in".

[amw.livejournal.com]

On the first part, I agree with you that recognition is a good first step. I can't really speak from experience because although I recognize several of my biggest flaws, I still have not really defeated them. But on my better days at least knowing that I am self-conscious and honest does make me feel like I am going in the right direction (slowly).

On the second part, the actress in Boy Meets Girl IS a transwoman playing a transwoman! It's definitely worth watching. Don't expect the greatest story in the world - it is just typical romcom fluff - but even romcom fluff is important when it helps to bring stories of a small, misunderstood and oppressed minority out of the shadows.

[porsupah.livejournal.com]

Ah, no, I was referring there to Transparent! ^_^; As a contrast to BMG, where as you say, the lead really has transitioned.

I do feel I'll finally get around to watching some of BMG tonight. ^_^ I just don't tend to really watch that much TV, unless it's with company, and it's unlikely to be something that'd appeal to the roomie. (Or not? He's hardly narrow-minded. Maybe I'll give it a try - if it doesn't engage him, that's no problem. I've not been very successful in convincing him of the merits of MLP, though =:)