Get Mr. Happypants. We're going to Spain.
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dolariAdded to more quizzes to the Boredom Killers entry. Scan down to December 1st to see them. Actual journal entry tonight
Blatantly ripped of from Fmcarrot.
Are you depressed, stressed, dealing with anxiety, dealing with racing thoughts, etc. right now? Yes. Yes. No. No.
Do you keep things inside? Yes.
If so, why do you think that is (be honest)? Because the guilty lie so they won't get caught, and the innocent lie so they won't be blamed.
Do you take any medication and if so what is/are your meds? Estradiol 4mg. Spironolactone 300mg, Lipitor 10mg, Toprol 100mg.
If you don't take meds do you think that you should? I'd take my meds if I had the money for them. I'd go to the doctor if I had the money for them. I'd do a lot of things if I had the money for them.
Do you need help? Absolutely.
Have you been diagnosed with anything? A nasty genetic cholesterol condition that every one on my dad's side has. I WILL get diabetes one day, too. It's pretty much a foregone conclusion with my mom's genetics. I coulda picked better parents genetically, couldn't I have?
Do you constantly forget things? Yes.
If you could relate to any movie character who would it be? Supergirl. Yeah, the Helen Slater movie. Yeah,it's sill, but who cares. :) She's one of my idols. And you didn't ask which Video Game character I relate to.
In which way can you relate to this character? She starts out as a girl very unsure of herself, an ugly duckling, who realizes she is something special. Yeah, this is the plot of a million girly movies...but I'll take a girly movie where the ugly duckling crushes a rock in her bare hands over anyone that involves leotards, tutus and tiaras.
Do you have suicidal thoughts or have you ever had suicidal thoughts? Often.
Are you suicidal or have you ever tried? I've seriously attempted suicide three times. One of which is told online here in my journal (See the October 31st, 2001 entry). I DID die that night in 1995, you know. I tried to suffocate before that, and failed at that,too. Before that I took a bunch of mom's pills and prolly just hurt my liver....
If so when was the last time you did so? 1995. I've thought about it this year, but decided against it.
Kurt Cobain or Marilyn Monroe (meaning would you take your life quickly and shoot yourself as Kurt Cobaine did or would you overdose on pills as Marilyn Monroe did)? Guns. Quick and semi-painless, please.
Do you have a bad temper? I used to. Let me tell you, that estradiol is powerful stuff. :)
Do you tend to dress in a lot of dark colors without always realizing that you do? No. I tend to wear colors. Muted colors, but colors. Lots of browns, creams and autumn colors.
Is life just too much? Yes. But some days, it's actually worth it. SOME days.
Do you feel that you are alone? Romantically? Yes. Friendship-wise? Absolutely not. Although that's a recent (within the last year) development.
Are you alone? Romantically, yes. Friendship-wise, no. :)
Do you hear voices in your head? Well,that depends. :) Unknown voices that torment me and tell me I'm worthless or argue with me? Sure...but only one. The characters I create for writing talk to me all the time - mostly about story plot points or character development. A few have even just wanted to chat. :)
If so what is one of things they have told you? The Mean Voice - I'm worthless, a waste of skin, I'm a bad person, I am so much lower than everyone else. All the others - I want to be a singer, I am a True Angel, LEave me alone,I'm busy working on a cloning chamber, ever meet Cleopatra?, Can I have a two bedroom house?, I like living in AMrysville. I could go on, but there's SO much. :)
Do you often realize that your characteristics are slightly different? Only in the last year or so. My parents told me I was a genius and very very different...but they also called me SweetieWeetie. Would you believe someone who called you a Sweetieweety or a Poochinoonie? I don't think so.
Do people stare at you? Often.
Do they talk about you? Not thatI know of. I'm sure they do.
Do you somehow think that you can sense and feel certain things? Yes - ESPECIALLY if the emotion is very very strong. .
Do you believe in the word Normal? Absolutely not.
Is life just a big fucked up dream to you or is life as real as it gets to you? It's real. But it's a real fucked up life.
Do you do any drugs? ABSOLUTELY NOT.
If so, did you know that XTC is known to make people even more depressed when the high is over as some side effect? Nope, but I've never tried it, so I ain't worried. Worried for friends who DO do it, though.
Do you live the alternative lifestyle (such as gay, lesbian, queer, bisexual)? ::laugh:: but not any of the ones you see here.
Do you have an escape? Oh, you bet,.
What exactly is your escape my friend? Writing and drawing. Literally creating another life that I can guide and nurture to it's final end. Pretty cool stuff. And you missed a comma between "escape" and "my."
Do you drink alcohol? Absolutely not. Stuff burns my stomach. Bleh.
Do you drink the Devils poison alone? Nope. I said I don't drink the stuff.
Did you know that this is also a sign of depression? Yup. BUT AREN'T YOU LISTENING, I DON'T DRINK....jeeze....
Please share your favorite quote with us whether it be from a poem, song, movie, ect.: "You know, I used to think it was awful that life was so unfair. Then I thought 'Wouldn't it be much worse if life were fair, and all the terrible things that happen to us come because we actually deserve them?' So now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness of the universe."
Are you a loner? Not by choice.
If so, do you prefer it that way? Actually, no. I like having friends who love me around. It's just very hard to get to them now.
Do you lean more towards being a preppy or Goth? I tend to do my own thing, which straddles the line between prep and goth and million other things.
If you so do you often find yourself disliking the other? Nope.
Hot or Cold? Hot.
Fire or Ice? Fire.
Rope, Knife, Razor, Gun, or Pills? Gun.
Do you feel like you can kill sometimes? NO COMMENT.
Have you ever fantasized about killing? NO COMMENT.
Do you believe that the kids from Columbine High were just fed up with the In crowd fucking with them (since they were out to murder the Preps, Jocks, and popular students)? Yes. While Columbine was a horrible horrible thing, one of my first reactions was "It's about time." My next reaction was "remember that the people who tormented those two into killing are just as guilty."
Would you have went along with it? "Gone along." No. While I admit I have my hates and prejudices, taking another life is just wrong to me. Unless they absolutely...NO COMMENT.
Do these questions offend you? Nope.
Why do they or don't they offend you? Because there's nothing here I wouldn't' discuss in normal conversation.
Are you just a waste of space? According to a voice and one person in this house. I used to even belive I was a waste of skin.
Were you abused as a child (mentally or physically)? Physically, never. Emotionally...well...there is a person in this house who I found out just a few years ago WAS Abusing me mentally. I just didn't know that's what it was. I thought I just deserved it....
Rebellious? Actually...no. I'm a good kid. Do what I'm told. Make nice with everyone when I can. Heck, I even vote Democrat/Libertarian like my parents.
Do you own a wallet chain? Nope.
Can you relate to the song Sickness by the group Disturbed? No, but I can relate to the alternate lyrics to Mommy and Daddy by the Monkees.
Do you smoke cigarettes (if so, why did you start to begin with)? I'm the most boring person you'll meet vice wise - I don't smoke neither. But I'll admit I like the smell of burning tobacco.
Do you smoke pot (if so what is your reason for smoking pot)? Nope. Know plenty of people who do. But the smell makes me sick.
Are you a cutter? No. More of a puncher. And even then that's few and far between nowadays.
Does it keep you feeling? I don't punch for feeling, usually because there's no one around to punish me when I do wrong. I've tried to shy away from that thinking, and have for a long time...but a certain someone in this house has pretty much ingrained it in me. I don't do it hardly ever anymore.
Are you somebody? I don't try to be...it just happened. And then as quickly as it got here, it went away....
Why did you take this survey? Because I get deep personal insights into myself that I'd never thought of before by taking a survey someone else designs. I've learned one new thing about myself today from this test alone.
Blatantly ripped of from Fmcarrot.
Are you depressed, stressed, dealing with anxiety, dealing with racing thoughts, etc. right now? Yes. Yes. No. No.
Do you keep things inside? Yes.
If so, why do you think that is (be honest)? Because the guilty lie so they won't get caught, and the innocent lie so they won't be blamed.
Do you take any medication and if so what is/are your meds? Estradiol 4mg. Spironolactone 300mg, Lipitor 10mg, Toprol 100mg.
If you don't take meds do you think that you should? I'd take my meds if I had the money for them. I'd go to the doctor if I had the money for them. I'd do a lot of things if I had the money for them.
Do you need help? Absolutely.
Have you been diagnosed with anything? A nasty genetic cholesterol condition that every one on my dad's side has. I WILL get diabetes one day, too. It's pretty much a foregone conclusion with my mom's genetics. I coulda picked better parents genetically, couldn't I have?
Do you constantly forget things? Yes.
If you could relate to any movie character who would it be? Supergirl. Yeah, the Helen Slater movie. Yeah,it's sill, but who cares. :) She's one of my idols. And you didn't ask which Video Game character I relate to.
In which way can you relate to this character? She starts out as a girl very unsure of herself, an ugly duckling, who realizes she is something special. Yeah, this is the plot of a million girly movies...but I'll take a girly movie where the ugly duckling crushes a rock in her bare hands over anyone that involves leotards, tutus and tiaras.
Do you have suicidal thoughts or have you ever had suicidal thoughts? Often.
Are you suicidal or have you ever tried? I've seriously attempted suicide three times. One of which is told online here in my journal (See the October 31st, 2001 entry). I DID die that night in 1995, you know. I tried to suffocate before that, and failed at that,too. Before that I took a bunch of mom's pills and prolly just hurt my liver....
If so when was the last time you did so? 1995. I've thought about it this year, but decided against it.
Kurt Cobain or Marilyn Monroe (meaning would you take your life quickly and shoot yourself as Kurt Cobaine did or would you overdose on pills as Marilyn Monroe did)? Guns. Quick and semi-painless, please.
Do you have a bad temper? I used to. Let me tell you, that estradiol is powerful stuff. :)
Do you tend to dress in a lot of dark colors without always realizing that you do? No. I tend to wear colors. Muted colors, but colors. Lots of browns, creams and autumn colors.
Is life just too much? Yes. But some days, it's actually worth it. SOME days.
Do you feel that you are alone? Romantically? Yes. Friendship-wise? Absolutely not. Although that's a recent (within the last year) development.
Are you alone? Romantically, yes. Friendship-wise, no. :)
Do you hear voices in your head? Well,that depends. :) Unknown voices that torment me and tell me I'm worthless or argue with me? Sure...but only one. The characters I create for writing talk to me all the time - mostly about story plot points or character development. A few have even just wanted to chat. :)
If so what is one of things they have told you? The Mean Voice - I'm worthless, a waste of skin, I'm a bad person, I am so much lower than everyone else. All the others - I want to be a singer, I am a True Angel, LEave me alone,I'm busy working on a cloning chamber, ever meet Cleopatra?, Can I have a two bedroom house?, I like living in AMrysville. I could go on, but there's SO much. :)
Do you often realize that your characteristics are slightly different? Only in the last year or so. My parents told me I was a genius and very very different...but they also called me SweetieWeetie. Would you believe someone who called you a Sweetieweety or a Poochinoonie? I don't think so.
Do people stare at you? Often.
Do they talk about you? Not thatI know of. I'm sure they do.
Do you somehow think that you can sense and feel certain things? Yes - ESPECIALLY if the emotion is very very strong. .
Do you believe in the word Normal? Absolutely not.
Is life just a big fucked up dream to you or is life as real as it gets to you? It's real. But it's a real fucked up life.
Do you do any drugs? ABSOLUTELY NOT.
If so, did you know that XTC is known to make people even more depressed when the high is over as some side effect? Nope, but I've never tried it, so I ain't worried. Worried for friends who DO do it, though.
Do you live the alternative lifestyle (such as gay, lesbian, queer, bisexual)? ::laugh:: but not any of the ones you see here.
Do you have an escape? Oh, you bet,.
What exactly is your escape my friend? Writing and drawing. Literally creating another life that I can guide and nurture to it's final end. Pretty cool stuff. And you missed a comma between "escape" and "my."
Do you drink alcohol? Absolutely not. Stuff burns my stomach. Bleh.
Do you drink the Devils poison alone? Nope. I said I don't drink the stuff.
Did you know that this is also a sign of depression? Yup. BUT AREN'T YOU LISTENING, I DON'T DRINK....jeeze....
Please share your favorite quote with us whether it be from a poem, song, movie, ect.: "You know, I used to think it was awful that life was so unfair. Then I thought 'Wouldn't it be much worse if life were fair, and all the terrible things that happen to us come because we actually deserve them?' So now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness of the universe."
Are you a loner? Not by choice.
If so, do you prefer it that way? Actually, no. I like having friends who love me around. It's just very hard to get to them now.
Do you lean more towards being a preppy or Goth? I tend to do my own thing, which straddles the line between prep and goth and million other things.
If you so do you often find yourself disliking the other? Nope.
Hot or Cold? Hot.
Fire or Ice? Fire.
Rope, Knife, Razor, Gun, or Pills? Gun.
Do you feel like you can kill sometimes? NO COMMENT.
Have you ever fantasized about killing? NO COMMENT.
Do you believe that the kids from Columbine High were just fed up with the In crowd fucking with them (since they were out to murder the Preps, Jocks, and popular students)? Yes. While Columbine was a horrible horrible thing, one of my first reactions was "It's about time." My next reaction was "remember that the people who tormented those two into killing are just as guilty."
Would you have went along with it? "Gone along." No. While I admit I have my hates and prejudices, taking another life is just wrong to me. Unless they absolutely...NO COMMENT.
Do these questions offend you? Nope.
Why do they or don't they offend you? Because there's nothing here I wouldn't' discuss in normal conversation.
Are you just a waste of space? According to a voice and one person in this house. I used to even belive I was a waste of skin.
Were you abused as a child (mentally or physically)? Physically, never. Emotionally...well...there is a person in this house who I found out just a few years ago WAS Abusing me mentally. I just didn't know that's what it was. I thought I just deserved it....
Rebellious? Actually...no. I'm a good kid. Do what I'm told. Make nice with everyone when I can. Heck, I even vote Democrat/Libertarian like my parents.
Do you own a wallet chain? Nope.
Can you relate to the song Sickness by the group Disturbed? No, but I can relate to the alternate lyrics to Mommy and Daddy by the Monkees.
Do you smoke cigarettes (if so, why did you start to begin with)? I'm the most boring person you'll meet vice wise - I don't smoke neither. But I'll admit I like the smell of burning tobacco.
Do you smoke pot (if so what is your reason for smoking pot)? Nope. Know plenty of people who do. But the smell makes me sick.
Are you a cutter? No. More of a puncher. And even then that's few and far between nowadays.
Does it keep you feeling? I don't punch for feeling, usually because there's no one around to punish me when I do wrong. I've tried to shy away from that thinking, and have for a long time...but a certain someone in this house has pretty much ingrained it in me. I don't do it hardly ever anymore.
Are you somebody? I don't try to be...it just happened. And then as quickly as it got here, it went away....
Why did you take this survey? Because I get deep personal insights into myself that I'd never thought of before by taking a survey someone else designs. I've learned one new thing about myself today from this test alone.
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