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Aug. 25th, 2013
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Aug. 25th, 2013 12:53 amA week or two ago Alison came down to visit. During our first talk, she mentioned something to me that kind of struck me. Something along the lines of (and feel free to correct me, Alison), but "You, as a trans person, DID it. You integrated. You're successful." I've never really considered myself a successful transwoman. In fact, I think I'm a bit of a failure.
While I jumped through all the Standard of Care hoops back in the late 90s, I've yet to actually get my surgery, and have, in fact, given up on the idea I'll ever have money for it. While I talk like a woman, I don't sound like one. I speak in the highest range my voice will allow without flipping into falsetto...and it's not very convincing. I'm not very attractive, and have even called "An unfortunate looking woman." I'm anything but a success. Heck, I was fired for and nearly arrested for using the women's restroom. I'm not really all that good at this....
....but as some folks have told me - despite all that, I've managed to survive and do things most transwomen can't: hold down jobs, be accepted into women's spaces and lives, and even be a spokeswoman for the transgendered condition. There was something about a webcomic, too. Basically: I kinda DID do it. For all intents and purposes, I've become a woman.
I don't feel successful, most days. In fact, it's really rare that I feel like I've accompliushed anything. But some days I do have to admit to myself: I've come a long way. :)
While I jumped through all the Standard of Care hoops back in the late 90s, I've yet to actually get my surgery, and have, in fact, given up on the idea I'll ever have money for it. While I talk like a woman, I don't sound like one. I speak in the highest range my voice will allow without flipping into falsetto...and it's not very convincing. I'm not very attractive, and have even called "An unfortunate looking woman." I'm anything but a success. Heck, I was fired for and nearly arrested for using the women's restroom. I'm not really all that good at this....
....but as some folks have told me - despite all that, I've managed to survive and do things most transwomen can't: hold down jobs, be accepted into women's spaces and lives, and even be a spokeswoman for the transgendered condition. There was something about a webcomic, too. Basically: I kinda DID do it. For all intents and purposes, I've become a woman.
I don't feel successful, most days. In fact, it's really rare that I feel like I've accompliushed anything. But some days I do have to admit to myself: I've come a long way. :)
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Aug. 25th, 2013 05:55 pmTo me, one of the greatest triumphs of fandom were fans basically creating remastered versions of Spartakus and the Sun Beneath the Sea (which have never been released as no one know who owns the right, or even where the masters are), by taking the remastered French DVDs and editing the footage to match English off-the-air sound recordings. :)
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Aug. 25th, 2013 06:25 pmSpartakus and the Sun Beneath the Sea: Not always animated well, not always acted well, but it was atmospheric as hell. Definitely reboot worthy. http://youtu.be/48NaLR8V9fE
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Aug. 25th, 2013 08:08 pmOne of the reasons I want Street Fighter X Tekken? One of the fighters is trans: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Poison_%28Final_Fight%29
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Aug. 25th, 2013 10:55 pm(10:42:24 PM) Nonesuch Hibiki: *disclaimer: i do not care That much about batman... i was impressed with ledger as joker. a good batman movie is nice. la da.
(10:42:44 PM) Nonesuch Hibiki: ..then again, perhaps i am just distancing myself after collecting so many Batman and Robin Taco Bell cups...
(10:50:35 PM) Jenn Dolari: My Godzilla Taco Bell Cups only went UP in value!
(10:42:44 PM) Nonesuch Hibiki: ..then again, perhaps i am just distancing myself after collecting so many Batman and Robin Taco Bell cups...
(10:50:35 PM) Jenn Dolari: My Godzilla Taco Bell Cups only went UP in value!